Yep, I've gone so far away from where I was at day 90 that there is no need to keep counting. I want day #1 again. Day #1, Phase 2. Yeah. That's what I'm talking about.
So tomorrow, June 1, I will watch myself begin again. In some ways I'm SO FREAKING BUMMED. And in another way I don't really care. And in yet another way, I'm so like, "I knew I'd do this!" I'm such a quitter!!
Good new is, so what - I get down, I get up again...At least I keep on getting up!!
Monday, May 30, 2011
Tuesday, May 17, 2011
Day 87 - one foot on, one foot off
I know the only way I can do this, is if I'm honest and accountable to you, my friends and strangers. So here is my day:
Didn't eat until 1:00. Had 1 burrito.
About 4:00 had a bowl of spaghetti.
About 6:30 had Chicken and Veggie Braid, made with crescent rolls (Pampered Chef!) Thought I'd just eat the chicken and veggies mix, so I did. Then I had a large piece of the braid.
Topped the day off with 4 no bake oatmeal cookies and a glass of milk.
No walking. No eliptical.
Doesn't really do me any good to tell you what I did today, so that you don't think I sit on the couch all day watching Days of Our Lives and eating, well, no bake oatmeal cookies. I don't even turn on a tv during the day. And I sure as heck don't sit all day. Really doesn't matter though.
Truth? I eat like I should not and I do not do what I should.
Welcome to me, with one leg on the wagon and the other one rubbing off into a bloody stump as it drags along the road.
Didn't eat until 1:00. Had 1 burrito.
About 4:00 had a bowl of spaghetti.
About 6:30 had Chicken and Veggie Braid, made with crescent rolls (Pampered Chef!) Thought I'd just eat the chicken and veggies mix, so I did. Then I had a large piece of the braid.
Topped the day off with 4 no bake oatmeal cookies and a glass of milk.
No walking. No eliptical.
Doesn't really do me any good to tell you what I did today, so that you don't think I sit on the couch all day watching Days of Our Lives and eating, well, no bake oatmeal cookies. I don't even turn on a tv during the day. And I sure as heck don't sit all day. Really doesn't matter though.
Truth? I eat like I should not and I do not do what I should.
Welcome to me, with one leg on the wagon and the other one rubbing off into a bloody stump as it drags along the road.
Sunday, May 15, 2011
Day 85
I have fallen off the wagon of health and can't find my way back on. Tomorrow though, I will climb back on even if I risk getting splinters or banging my shins on the side.
Tomorrow, I will walk 20-30 minutes and eat veggies and protein for breakfast and lunch, and my reward meal at Tuscany's for graduation rehearsal dinner for our son.
That is my goal. Ask me how I did.
Tomorrow, I will walk 20-30 minutes and eat veggies and protein for breakfast and lunch, and my reward meal at Tuscany's for graduation rehearsal dinner for our son.
That is my goal. Ask me how I did.
Saturday, May 7, 2011
Day 77
It's been a long time since I posted, 11 days to be exact. I'm disappointed in some things, but ok with some others. Disappointed that I have turned to food in my times of anxiety and exhaustion in the last week especially. My family came down with a SEVERE stomach flu beginning Monday. It is now Saturday night, and 1 of the 4 that got it is still not quite right. So when I was tired, I ate, and when I was scared for them and the dehydration, I ate. Oh I kept with my good diet alright, but added in!! I added chocolate cake, Twizzlers, cookies, chips and a pop. Not all in the same day, but still - SO WRONG! And I had zero time and energy to walk. All in all I'd say this was a bad week.
The good news...This is a journey. That's all it is. A journey. A friend told me that tonight, and I tried to one up her and embellish it by making it sound like something greater than a journey, but I couldn't! That's just what it is. I am walking along the way, down the path to a healthy lifestyle, and when I screw up and waiver off, I just get back on and go straight again.
So, Lord, here I am. Help me to remember that none of the extra calories and unhealthy choices I made helped me get through this week. It was all you. ALL you. Forgive me for making the choices I did. I want to be healthy for Your glory, for my family, for me! Hang in there with me.
The good news...This is a journey. That's all it is. A journey. A friend told me that tonight, and I tried to one up her and embellish it by making it sound like something greater than a journey, but I couldn't! That's just what it is. I am walking along the way, down the path to a healthy lifestyle, and when I screw up and waiver off, I just get back on and go straight again.
So, Lord, here I am. Help me to remember that none of the extra calories and unhealthy choices I made helped me get through this week. It was all you. ALL you. Forgive me for making the choices I did. I want to be healthy for Your glory, for my family, for me! Hang in there with me.
Tuesday, April 26, 2011
Day 66 TEST RESULTS!!
Hold on to your lug nuts, it's time for my results after 6 weeks of lifestyle changes! Had my appt. today and this is what Dr. LaSalle said, "GIVE ME A HIGH FIVE!!"
I previously told you that my insulin was 70 and should be 5. I was wrong. It was 20 and should be 5. So...
Insulin 6 weeks ago - 20. Insulin today - 14!
Triglycerides 6 weeks ago - 338. Triglycerides today - 263!
Cholesterol 6 weeks ago - 235. Cholesterol today 196!
HDL 6 weeks ago - 37. HDL today 30 (not good that it dropped. This is the good cholesterol)
LDL 6 weeks ago - 130. LDL today 113!
And weight down 12 lbs.!!
She was SO HAPPY! She said, "YOU LISTENED TO ME!" She was so encouraging. She is starting me on Niacin to see if we can get the good cholesterol where it should be.
My bp was higher than it's ever been there (bottom number 100). I have NEVER had that with the exception of pre-eclampsia. But she said coffee on the way over here and the exciting news was surely the cause, but keep an eye on it. When I got home I checked and it was 125/63.
All in all, I'm SO PLEASED that the Lord gave me the desire to change and the strength to do it! And the things is, I told her that I was not nearly perfect!! And she said 80/20 rule makes a BIG difference in your lifestyle. She's right!
Thanks so much for all your encouragement and prayer. I am so thankful. I see her again in 2 months for another check on labs. She said it usually take 3 months to get Insulin down to 5.
I'm on my way!!
I previously told you that my insulin was 70 and should be 5. I was wrong. It was 20 and should be 5. So...
Insulin 6 weeks ago - 20. Insulin today - 14!
Triglycerides 6 weeks ago - 338. Triglycerides today - 263!
Cholesterol 6 weeks ago - 235. Cholesterol today 196!
HDL 6 weeks ago - 37. HDL today 30 (not good that it dropped. This is the good cholesterol)
LDL 6 weeks ago - 130. LDL today 113!
And weight down 12 lbs.!!
She was SO HAPPY! She said, "YOU LISTENED TO ME!" She was so encouraging. She is starting me on Niacin to see if we can get the good cholesterol where it should be.
My bp was higher than it's ever been there (bottom number 100). I have NEVER had that with the exception of pre-eclampsia. But she said coffee on the way over here and the exciting news was surely the cause, but keep an eye on it. When I got home I checked and it was 125/63.
All in all, I'm SO PLEASED that the Lord gave me the desire to change and the strength to do it! And the things is, I told her that I was not nearly perfect!! And she said 80/20 rule makes a BIG difference in your lifestyle. She's right!
Thanks so much for all your encouragement and prayer. I am so thankful. I see her again in 2 months for another check on labs. She said it usually take 3 months to get Insulin down to 5.
I'm on my way!!
Sunday, April 24, 2011
Day 64, OINK
Yeah, I ate today like a woman who had never heard of a new lifestyle. The only thing I resisted was lasagna, donuts and cheese cake. But the things I ate were high sugar, high carb, high fat and highly enjoyable. But I'm bloated and bummed so NO NEW NEWS!!
Back on track tomorrow.
Speaking of tomorrow, it is my blood test in the a.m. I am nervous about it. I am worried that the numbers will say, "failure" and the doctor will say, "here's that medication you do not want to take, now take it or you'll die" or something like that.
So would you please pray that the efforts I have made, even though they have not been perfect every day and sometimes far from it, would be enough to show SOME IMPROVEMENT in my insulin and lipid panel? It would be a wonderful boost to my "keep going" part of my brain. I could use a little boost right now! The scales are the same, but my husband constantly comments that I am acting better, looking better and have more energy and less anxiety. He's right. Now come on blood, show me the numbers!
Back on track tomorrow.
Speaking of tomorrow, it is my blood test in the a.m. I am nervous about it. I am worried that the numbers will say, "failure" and the doctor will say, "here's that medication you do not want to take, now take it or you'll die" or something like that.
So would you please pray that the efforts I have made, even though they have not been perfect every day and sometimes far from it, would be enough to show SOME IMPROVEMENT in my insulin and lipid panel? It would be a wonderful boost to my "keep going" part of my brain. I could use a little boost right now! The scales are the same, but my husband constantly comments that I am acting better, looking better and have more energy and less anxiety. He's right. Now come on blood, show me the numbers!
Thursday, April 21, 2011
Day 61, TIP OF THE DAY
Do NOT eat carbs until the reward meal. Period. When an addict is recovering she cannot have even the slightest taste!!!
And that, my friends, is the tip of the day.
Blood test is Monday morning - GOTTA BE GOOD TO MYSELF!!
And that, my friends, is the tip of the day.
Blood test is Monday morning - GOTTA BE GOOD TO MYSELF!!
Wednesday, April 20, 2011
Day 60
I did end up walking last night, yay. I did end up eating more chicken before I went to bed, not yay. I'm sure it was the teraki sweet sauce I was craving and not the protein of the chicken.
Today has been pretty good! I had 2 eggs and 2 c. or more of spinach for breakfast, and lunch was 2 c. spinach or more with tuna, home made bread and a brownie with home made chocolate icing!!! WOOT! Can you say reward meal was lunch today? YES YOU CAN!
Now if I can stick with the plan and have a healthy complimentary meal (as the Carb Addicts Diet calls it) at dinner, I will be fine! That will include A large salad (2 c. at least) and a protein, probably chicken. I already walked today, so I got that down. My accountability partner is back in town and it was good to be held accountable.
Thanks for your faithful reads!
Today has been pretty good! I had 2 eggs and 2 c. or more of spinach for breakfast, and lunch was 2 c. spinach or more with tuna, home made bread and a brownie with home made chocolate icing!!! WOOT! Can you say reward meal was lunch today? YES YOU CAN!
Now if I can stick with the plan and have a healthy complimentary meal (as the Carb Addicts Diet calls it) at dinner, I will be fine! That will include A large salad (2 c. at least) and a protein, probably chicken. I already walked today, so I got that down. My accountability partner is back in town and it was good to be held accountable.
Thanks for your faithful reads!
Tuesday, April 19, 2011
Day 59, better
Today I had more of a focus of what is good for me and what is not. This is my food so far today:
Coffee, one with cream a a couple black
Lunch, large salad & flat bread baked with sun dried tomato pesto, and a little mozzerella
Dinner, teriaki chicken shredded, large spinach salad and 1 piece bread
Coffee, black
Water, lots
At lunch, the flat bread should not have been an option. I thought maybe I'd skip bread for my dinner because I can have it at one meal (the reward meal), but I didn't! So, better day though!
I hope to walk tonight. There is a flooded area on our road by the pond and the ducks were swimming in the road earlier today. Fun!
Coffee, one with cream a a couple black
Lunch, large salad & flat bread baked with sun dried tomato pesto, and a little mozzerella
Dinner, teriaki chicken shredded, large spinach salad and 1 piece bread
Coffee, black
Water, lots
At lunch, the flat bread should not have been an option. I thought maybe I'd skip bread for my dinner because I can have it at one meal (the reward meal), but I didn't! So, better day though!
I hope to walk tonight. There is a flooded area on our road by the pond and the ducks were swimming in the road earlier today. Fun!
Monday, April 18, 2011
Day 58 end of week 2 on CAD
Wow. I've had a rough few days. I lost an avg. of 2 lbs. the first week and felt GREAT!! My 2nd week started out good and ended on a horrid note of carb addiction return. Why? Because I let my hormonal body taste what I thought it needed, when really it was not what I needed at all. And once the taste came, the demons came back with ALL THEIR FRIENDS and I invited them in and gave them a place to hang out for awhile. Disgusting, isn't it?? I did not gain weight, but I did not lose, and more importantly, my lifestyle was not pleasing.
UGH. I hate the feeling after an addiction is fed. I have heart burn. I puke up in my mouth at night. My stomach is bloated. I am sleepier than normal. I am grumpier. My chest feels heavy. My throat feels full. I hate everything about it. I know my insulin is not being absorbed properly. I know the dangers. I've read it over and over and heard it straight from the Doctor's mouth. But when I am craving the foods that harm me, I seem to not care.
That's not really the truth. I do care. I care so much that I even have cried while the very danger passes my lips and goes down my throat.
One problem I have had this week is the grocery money was very tight, and I did not buy all the fresh veggies that I had the first week. BIG difference in how I ate. It was much better when I filled up with salad first off,and then enjoyed my protein. Mike got paid for an extra job and tomorrow, I head to the produce section!
Lord, you've shown me there is nothing good in eating foods that harm me. Nothing. Tomorrow is a new day and because of you, I can leave this day for what it is, and look forward to the new day of good things.
UGH. I hate the feeling after an addiction is fed. I have heart burn. I puke up in my mouth at night. My stomach is bloated. I am sleepier than normal. I am grumpier. My chest feels heavy. My throat feels full. I hate everything about it. I know my insulin is not being absorbed properly. I know the dangers. I've read it over and over and heard it straight from the Doctor's mouth. But when I am craving the foods that harm me, I seem to not care.
That's not really the truth. I do care. I care so much that I even have cried while the very danger passes my lips and goes down my throat.
One problem I have had this week is the grocery money was very tight, and I did not buy all the fresh veggies that I had the first week. BIG difference in how I ate. It was much better when I filled up with salad first off,and then enjoyed my protein. Mike got paid for an extra job and tomorrow, I head to the produce section!
Lord, you've shown me there is nothing good in eating foods that harm me. Nothing. Tomorrow is a new day and because of you, I can leave this day for what it is, and look forward to the new day of good things.
Tuesday, April 12, 2011
Not a diet, a lifestyle.: Day 51, end of week on on CAD
Not a diet, a lifestyle.: Day 51, end of week on on CAD: "I just finished my first week of the Carb Addict's Diet. I am so pleased to say that my craving for carbs is next to nothing! I can hardly b..."
Day 51, end of week on on CAD
I just finished my first week of the Carb Addict's Diet. I am so pleased to say that my craving for carbs is next to nothing! I can hardly believe it. They recommend weighing every day, then getting an average over a week's time. They say to add all the weights up (YIKES!) and then divide by the number of times I weighed. It gives more accurate (and encouraging) chart to track the weight loss, since most people's weight flluctuate a few pounds every week, up and down.
I lost an avg. of 2 lbs. this week. That is a total of 12 lbs. since I committed my new lifestyle to Dr. LaSalle in the first week of March. Basically, 12 lbs. in one month. I can live with that!
But on the the more important factor, and that is my insulin level and lipid panel. I will get those drawn at the end of this week and I pray so much that the numbers reflect my efforts!
I lost an avg. of 2 lbs. this week. That is a total of 12 lbs. since I committed my new lifestyle to Dr. LaSalle in the first week of March. Basically, 12 lbs. in one month. I can live with that!
But on the the more important factor, and that is my insulin level and lipid panel. I will get those drawn at the end of this week and I pray so much that the numbers reflect my efforts!
Thursday, April 7, 2011
Day 46, weighed
So thankful to weigh this a.m. and be down another pound. That's 2 lbs. in 2 days of the CAD! Feel so good! And my Dr. in Carmel said that she approves me trying this diet, and wants me to bring in the information to her on my next appt. and we will make sure it's right for me. If I am losing, and feel good, my insulin surely is lowering. Please Lord! Keep me going!
Wednesday, April 6, 2011
Day 45, Feeling good!
This was my second day on the Carb Addicts Diet way of eating. I must say, it feels really good. I woke up this a.m. and had lost another lb. which means 11 total since March 8th. If I count right, I am in my 5th week of a six week trial period. She will test my levels and I will see her in about a week. If I am improved, I will not have to take the dreaded pill to lower my insulin levels. Please, Lord, let my numbers be good.
I feel very satisfied eating this way. I am still learning and have to hear back from Dr. LaSalle about if she totally approves of this diet or not. I have an email sent to her and the replied today that they will answer asap. If she says bad things about it, I'll drop it. But I hope she doesn't.
To give you an idea of how I'm eating. And all of this is how the CAD says I should be:
Breakfast - 2 eggs with 2 cups spinach as an omlet cooked in a little butter.
Lunch - (yesterday) Large spinach salad with turkey chopped up (today) 2 cup spinach, 1 orange pepper, swiss cheese, sautee'd in left over butter from breakfast.
Dinner - (yesterday) 2/3 of my plate was spring mix salad, 1/3 was pasta and venison with sauce, 1/3 was bread. I ate until I was full, having another serving of pasta of less than 1/2 cup, and 1/2 bread. I was so satisfied and this was all eaten within one hour. (today) 2/3 plate was spring mix, 1/3 meatloaf, 2 cookies, 1 sm. glass milk.
If you don't understand the CAD then you won't understand the reward meal. It has to be eaten within one hour and it is not for binging. It is for eating normal portions, feeling satisfied, and then being done.
I did it. For 2 days. I feel like Linda Carter.
I also walked for an hour yesterday, but none today. However I was up and working from 5 a.m. until now and you'd think that could count for something!
I feel very satisfied eating this way. I am still learning and have to hear back from Dr. LaSalle about if she totally approves of this diet or not. I have an email sent to her and the replied today that they will answer asap. If she says bad things about it, I'll drop it. But I hope she doesn't.
To give you an idea of how I'm eating. And all of this is how the CAD says I should be:
Breakfast - 2 eggs with 2 cups spinach as an omlet cooked in a little butter.
Lunch - (yesterday) Large spinach salad with turkey chopped up (today) 2 cup spinach, 1 orange pepper, swiss cheese, sautee'd in left over butter from breakfast.
Dinner - (yesterday) 2/3 of my plate was spring mix salad, 1/3 was pasta and venison with sauce, 1/3 was bread. I ate until I was full, having another serving of pasta of less than 1/2 cup, and 1/2 bread. I was so satisfied and this was all eaten within one hour. (today) 2/3 plate was spring mix, 1/3 meatloaf, 2 cookies, 1 sm. glass milk.
If you don't understand the CAD then you won't understand the reward meal. It has to be eaten within one hour and it is not for binging. It is for eating normal portions, feeling satisfied, and then being done.
I did it. For 2 days. I feel like Linda Carter.
I also walked for an hour yesterday, but none today. However I was up and working from 5 a.m. until now and you'd think that could count for something!
Sunday, April 3, 2011
Day 42, CAD?
Today at church I had our fellowship pray for my strength in staying away from the foods that harm me. An hour later, I met up with a friend, a healthy friend, who I had not talked to for over a year. She filled my ear with information that she had found very very helpful in her addiction to carbs. She has a PHD and is very smart, duh. The book she read and loved is called The Carbohydrate Addict's Diet. I read their website when I got home. Makes sense to me.
Just wondering if anyone else out there has heard of this? http://www.carbohydrateaddicts.com/
Just wondering if anyone else out there has heard of this? http://www.carbohydrateaddicts.com/
Saturday, April 2, 2011
Day 41
Last night at a Pampered Chef party I made Strawberry Amaretto Puff Pastries. I loved them! The host also made a Chicken Ring from Pampered Chef recipes, and I love them as well. Pastry, Pastry, Pastry. That was the theme of the party! And wonderful strawberry lemonade to boot. But what did I eat and drink you ask? After the show ended and I was just visiting the host and her family, I had left over sliced strawberries dipped in chopped almonds. YAY FOR LOW G.I.!!!
I seem to be fudging every day though, somewhat. I want a string of perfect days, please. Like I had in the beginning when I lost 7 lbs. in one week and felt on top of the world. I'm doing so many things better like no pop etc., but I gotta be a gooder girl.
I seem to be fudging every day though, somewhat. I want a string of perfect days, please. Like I had in the beginning when I lost 7 lbs. in one week and felt on top of the world. I'm doing so many things better like no pop etc., but I gotta be a gooder girl.
Friday, April 1, 2011
Day 40
Late yesterday I met a man who is close to my age. He has one leg, and sores and all kinds of problems because he is diabetic. His wife says it is not under control, meaning he probably still eats wrong.
I want my legs.
I had a fail yesterday and that really means NOTHING for today. New day, same commitment, same strength from the same Father.
I did walk last night, which made it not an UTTER fail, I suppose. My fitness partner will be gone for 11 days and I promised her I would keep up my daily walk/elliptical/bike ride on my son's bike.
Here I go!
I want my legs.
I had a fail yesterday and that really means NOTHING for today. New day, same commitment, same strength from the same Father.
I did walk last night, which made it not an UTTER fail, I suppose. My fitness partner will be gone for 11 days and I promised her I would keep up my daily walk/elliptical/bike ride on my son's bike.
Here I go!
Thursday, March 31, 2011
Tuesday, March 29, 2011
Day 37, new goal
Well here I am at day 37 of my commitment to a new life style, and beginning week 4 of my low glyceminc, low animal fat, more exercise commitment. Hmmm.
I lost 7 lb. the first week, 0 the second week, and 0 the third week.
I have a theory.
I have been eating 75% better. I gotta bump it up. I have no wiggle room at this healing point in my life. Perhaps someday, I can fudge here and there (no pun intended), but now, I guess I cannot. Not one beer, not some pizza once a week, not not not.
I grumble a bit in my flesh, but my flesh has high insulin and high triglycerides and belly fat. So flesh, you gotta be quiet. It's time to bump it up a level and do better. My goal is not perfection, my goal is better. Do.Not.Fudge. Just for today. Lead me Lord away from the foods that harm me and guide me into your perfect peace knowing that I am changing for your glory.
PS - I can haz prayer?
I lost 7 lb. the first week, 0 the second week, and 0 the third week.
I have a theory.
I have been eating 75% better. I gotta bump it up. I have no wiggle room at this healing point in my life. Perhaps someday, I can fudge here and there (no pun intended), but now, I guess I cannot. Not one beer, not some pizza once a week, not not not.
I grumble a bit in my flesh, but my flesh has high insulin and high triglycerides and belly fat. So flesh, you gotta be quiet. It's time to bump it up a level and do better. My goal is not perfection, my goal is better. Do.Not.Fudge. Just for today. Lead me Lord away from the foods that harm me and guide me into your perfect peace knowing that I am changing for your glory.
PS - I can haz prayer?
Monday, March 28, 2011
Day 36
Same stuff different day of a new lifestyle! I would say I am 75% better than I was 36 days ago. I am eating greens every day, I am drinking no pop. I am drinking lots of water. I am walking nearly every day. I am not tempted by sweets so much at all. I am struggling with pizza. Seems every time we make pizza, I cave. I even had our son Aaron make it tonight so I wouldn't have to touch it, but I did touch it after it was done...and touched and touched until I probably ate equivalent to 2 pieces. My tummy never feels good when I do that. So I tried to reverse it with a dinner plate size salad and a 45 minute - 1 hour walk. Huh. Wonder if that worked.
Thursday, March 24, 2011
Day 32
Another good day! Not perfect, but very good. Walked again with my friend who makes me walk when I don't want to. Gotta love her!
I find myself craving milk and pasta. Cold cold milk. Also, today I treated 4 of my children to an old fashioned soda at Lynn's Pharmacy while I picked up some supplements. Coke in any flavor you want. I so so badly wanted a nice vanilla coke, fountain style. So badly.
I still do.
I find myself craving milk and pasta. Cold cold milk. Also, today I treated 4 of my children to an old fashioned soda at Lynn's Pharmacy while I picked up some supplements. Coke in any flavor you want. I so so badly wanted a nice vanilla coke, fountain style. So badly.
I still do.
Day 31
Very good day yesterday. All the right foods, with the exception of a couple bites of a bagel dang it. Walked 30 minutes and did yoga stretching with my accountability partner.
Feeling kinda down lately. I have pvc's (heart palpitations) and they came to visit about 5 days ago and seem to like it here. It brings me down after awhile.
Please pray they will stop soon.
Feeling kinda down lately. I have pvc's (heart palpitations) and they came to visit about 5 days ago and seem to like it here. It brings me down after awhile.
Please pray they will stop soon.
Wednesday, March 23, 2011
Day 30
Day 30 was pretty good with a pretty big bad choice included :)
I ate well, greens, smoothies, chicken, water, etc. I walked a hard walk, for me, with my tall friend for about 25 min. and then later in the day I did another 20 minutes. Why did I do that other 20 minutes, because I tried to eat 2 bites of pizza and it turned into 3. Not 3 bites, 3 pieces. STOOOOPIDDD!!! And I felt horrible 30 minutes later. Not.Worth.It.
I am hearing cheers in my head, "Rebound that basketball (stomp,clap,stomp,clap,stomp, clap clap!)"
I got this.
I ate well, greens, smoothies, chicken, water, etc. I walked a hard walk, for me, with my tall friend for about 25 min. and then later in the day I did another 20 minutes. Why did I do that other 20 minutes, because I tried to eat 2 bites of pizza and it turned into 3. Not 3 bites, 3 pieces. STOOOOPIDDD!!! And I felt horrible 30 minutes later. Not.Worth.It.
I am hearing cheers in my head, "Rebound that basketball (stomp,clap,stomp,clap,stomp, clap clap!)"
I got this.
Tuesday, March 22, 2011
Day 28, 29
I did ok yesterday and today has been ok, too. But today was my day to weigh and I did not lose any weight this week. I think there are 2 reasons. I fudged some - can't really fudge much at all. And I did not walk.
So, NEWSFLASH - must walk. Doing it today, and purpose to every day for the next 7 days. Please Lord give me the lowered insulin that I am asking for and honor my efforts to please you and care for your dwelling place.
So, NEWSFLASH - must walk. Doing it today, and purpose to every day for the next 7 days. Please Lord give me the lowered insulin that I am asking for and honor my efforts to please you and care for your dwelling place.
Sunday, March 20, 2011
Day 26, 27
Yesterday was great and I ate all the good and none of the bad with the exception of 1 Corona. I also walked.
Today has been a nice relaxing day and I'm pretty proud of my eating so far. I'll just break it down for you:
Breakfast: Coffee w/some cream, Fruit Smoothie with Kefir, about 1/2 c.
Lunch: Nuts, bowl of black beans
Snack: 1 cracker, goat cheese and olive relish, nuts
Dinner: Tuna on tortilla (only 25 gi on the torilla), large whole carrot
Bad choices today - 1 chip. Really? Did I need to do that?? Cracker, I really didn't need that either, I could eat the relish and goat cheese with carrots like I did yesterday.
So even though it was only 2 tiny bad choices, the matter is my heart. There is no reason to put those into my mouth. None. The taste is minimal and it only perpetuates a bad lifestyle, however small it seems. I hope to walk tonight after Mike gets home from a remodeling job.
Hard to believe tomorrow is day 28, which is really only day 13 of the GI diet, but day 28 of the commitment to kick the old lifestyle in the patootie.
The kicking continues...
Today has been a nice relaxing day and I'm pretty proud of my eating so far. I'll just break it down for you:
Breakfast: Coffee w/some cream, Fruit Smoothie with Kefir, about 1/2 c.
Lunch: Nuts, bowl of black beans
Snack: 1 cracker, goat cheese and olive relish, nuts
Dinner: Tuna on tortilla (only 25 gi on the torilla), large whole carrot
Bad choices today - 1 chip. Really? Did I need to do that?? Cracker, I really didn't need that either, I could eat the relish and goat cheese with carrots like I did yesterday.
So even though it was only 2 tiny bad choices, the matter is my heart. There is no reason to put those into my mouth. None. The taste is minimal and it only perpetuates a bad lifestyle, however small it seems. I hope to walk tonight after Mike gets home from a remodeling job.
Hard to believe tomorrow is day 28, which is really only day 13 of the GI diet, but day 28 of the commitment to kick the old lifestyle in the patootie.
The kicking continues...
Saturday, March 19, 2011
Day 25, day "off"
Yesterday was the celebration of my daughter's 21st birthday. I thought all day about if I was going to let myself have some insulin rising snacks, or if I was going to maintain my lifestyle. I chose to let myself have some unhealthy foods. Not sure that was the best choice in hind sight.
During the day I had my normal green smoothie, etc., and then I was craving cereal so bad,. So I had a bowl. Mistake #1. For the party I made a healthy chicken veggie brown rice soup, which I planned to eat along with some raw veggies. And I did, but I also ate a sloppy joe on a bun, and pink lemonade dessert square, and 2 chips, and half a fuzzy navel cooler.
I decided that was surely enough for me and purposed not to eat anything else the rest of the night unless it was conducive to my new lifestyle.
So I ate the tops of 4 cup cakes.
Yeah.
It's like driving out a demon and then have him and 7 of his friends return!! I really cannot divert or I just run in the wrong direction with head down, arms pumping and cleats digging in! It's like giving a heroin addict just a little bit of heroin during recovery. BAD IDEA.
So here I go, starting day 26, with the attitude that anything I put in my mouth last night was not worth the insulin raise. Except for maybe that one cup cake top.
During the day I had my normal green smoothie, etc., and then I was craving cereal so bad,. So I had a bowl. Mistake #1. For the party I made a healthy chicken veggie brown rice soup, which I planned to eat along with some raw veggies. And I did, but I also ate a sloppy joe on a bun, and pink lemonade dessert square, and 2 chips, and half a fuzzy navel cooler.
I decided that was surely enough for me and purposed not to eat anything else the rest of the night unless it was conducive to my new lifestyle.
So I ate the tops of 4 cup cakes.
Yeah.
It's like driving out a demon and then have him and 7 of his friends return!! I really cannot divert or I just run in the wrong direction with head down, arms pumping and cleats digging in! It's like giving a heroin addict just a little bit of heroin during recovery. BAD IDEA.
So here I go, starting day 26, with the attitude that anything I put in my mouth last night was not worth the insulin raise. Except for maybe that one cup cake top.
Thursday, March 17, 2011
Day 24, REBOUND!
I kicked it today! I ate nothing but good, and very little of it. I worked like a maniac on the house and school. Took a short nap, and right back at it. I don't think I have felt this good yet in this 24 day lifestyle challenge! Very pumped!
I think I will weigh every Tuesday a.m.
Naked.
After I pee.
Before I drink.
It's how I roll...or how I lose the roll rather.
I think I will weigh every Tuesday a.m.
Naked.
After I pee.
Before I drink.
It's how I roll...or how I lose the roll rather.
Wednesday, March 16, 2011
Day 23, harder
Today was a little harder for me. Not sure why. This morning was fine...
Green smoothie - spinach, strawberries, blueberries, water, and some nuts for a snack. About 1/2 c.
Lunch was 4 bagel bites. That was not my best choice. It was only 28 carbs, which what I am told translates to 28 on the GI index and my goal is to stay under 50. But still.
Snack was fruit smoothie with kefir, made with low gi berries.
Dinner is chicken breast, carrots steamed, and no apple tartlets that I made from a Pampered Chef recipe.
I also ate a bite of someone's pizza crust. I CANNOT, repeat, CANNOT do that. I cannot take bites of bad here and there. That is total lack of self control for me. Please pray that I can just simply abstain. It works much better for me. At least for now. Abstain from the things that I know are not my best choice.
I saw someone in my family drinking a coke from a bottle today. I walked away. All I could think about was how much that would rise my insulin.
Please, Lord, keep me going on the road to health. Let my numbers reflect your healing and your will power. In 5 weeks I will get a blood draw and I want you to get all the glory, please. Hang with me, your weak and flawed daughter!! My intentions are good but, God, I am flesh as well.
Green smoothie - spinach, strawberries, blueberries, water, and some nuts for a snack. About 1/2 c.
Lunch was 4 bagel bites. That was not my best choice. It was only 28 carbs, which what I am told translates to 28 on the GI index and my goal is to stay under 50. But still.
Snack was fruit smoothie with kefir, made with low gi berries.
Dinner is chicken breast, carrots steamed, and no apple tartlets that I made from a Pampered Chef recipe.
I also ate a bite of someone's pizza crust. I CANNOT, repeat, CANNOT do that. I cannot take bites of bad here and there. That is total lack of self control for me. Please pray that I can just simply abstain. It works much better for me. At least for now. Abstain from the things that I know are not my best choice.
I saw someone in my family drinking a coke from a bottle today. I walked away. All I could think about was how much that would rise my insulin.
Please, Lord, keep me going on the road to health. Let my numbers reflect your healing and your will power. In 5 weeks I will get a blood draw and I want you to get all the glory, please. Hang with me, your weak and flawed daughter!! My intentions are good but, God, I am flesh as well.
Tuesday, March 15, 2011
Day 22, evening
Today was another good day! Nuts, veggies, salads, pinto beans, green smoothie and water. Plus a 30 minute walk with a great friend. Oh, I did eat 3 pepperonis. There was pizza made tonight and I was pretty proud of 3 pepperonis considering a month ago I would have eaten 3 pieces of pizza.
These are boring blogs to some perhaps, but for me, it is very good!
Looking forward to what God will do tomorrow!
These are boring blogs to some perhaps, but for me, it is very good!
Looking forward to what God will do tomorrow!
Day 22 - I WEIGHED!
Serious lifestyle change for one week now. I weighed this a.m. I have lost SEVEN POUNDS.
Surely if I am losing, then my insulin is dropping and my triglycerides are scared.
The should be afraid. Very afraid.
Surely if I am losing, then my insulin is dropping and my triglycerides are scared.
The should be afraid. Very afraid.
Day 21, DQ - take THAT!!
Yesterday, Day 21, was awesome. We had to have a mechanic look over a car we wanted to by in Carmel, IN. The only place to go was DQ while we waited. I was a little concerned. But I ordered a pressed chicken quesidilla and water. The quesadilla (and no, I can't spell that) was broken into quarters. I ate one quarter with the shell, and then scraped off the insides of the others and ate the veggies and chicken only. And honestly, it wasn't hard. I am so, so thankful.
Sunday, March 13, 2011
Day 20, on my way!!
Today's foods have been:
Coffee, no sugar or cream
Large Salad with extra veggies and strawberries
Lentil Soup, about a cup
Freeze dried sugar snap peas (33 pea pods have 1 g. of sugar!)
1 c of nuts
Coffee
Large Salad, extra veggies with 1/2 c. taco seasoned ground venison
I did not walk again today dern it. Tomorrow will be equally hard to do, but I may be able to in the evening.
I feel very good today. Probably the best I have felt in months. I am in awe at how I can stand before donuts, breads, crackers and chips and walk on by. It helps to keep my laptop in the kitchen. It keeps my mind on other things while Im working in there.
I really feel like Im on my way to a new lifestyle, thank you LORD!
Coffee, no sugar or cream
Large Salad with extra veggies and strawberries
Lentil Soup, about a cup
Freeze dried sugar snap peas (33 pea pods have 1 g. of sugar!)
1 c of nuts
Coffee
Large Salad, extra veggies with 1/2 c. taco seasoned ground venison
I did not walk again today dern it. Tomorrow will be equally hard to do, but I may be able to in the evening.
I feel very good today. Probably the best I have felt in months. I am in awe at how I can stand before donuts, breads, crackers and chips and walk on by. It helps to keep my laptop in the kitchen. It keeps my mind on other things while Im working in there.
I really feel like Im on my way to a new lifestyle, thank you LORD!
Saturday, March 12, 2011
Day 19, another good day
Breakfast - 1/2 a chicken breast and many carrots
Lunch - 1/2 a chicken breast and many sugar snap peas (I took 2 bites of a salad that had raspberry vinaigrette and then read the dressing bottle and put it down)
Dinner - Great Northern Beans, about a cup or so...and I'm not sure what else I will have. Probably a green smoothie with no banana, just strawberries. Bananas have too high of a glycemic index.
I did not walk today. I had a Pampered Chef show and was on my feet most of the afternoon, even though that doesn't count.
I have been drinking lots more water! YAY!! And today I had a glass of tea where the hostess assured me it was very lightly sweetened, and it was.
I am going to look into a local church letting me use their kitchen for a day of mass cooking like my husband suggested. It would be so much easier/quicker in an industrial setting like that.
It was hard tonight as I made pizzas for everyone. I was so tempted to break off a crusty edge and, then probably another crusty edge and so on and so on. But, I did not. I ate my beans and blogged.
Friday, March 11, 2011
Day 18, BAM AGAIN
I'm tired, so here is a quick report of my good day.
Breakfast - small bowl of egg beaters, scrambled and 4 bites of cantaloupe (medium GI, not the best)
Lunch - Spinach salad, 1/2 c pintos
20 minute walk!
Snack - nuts, 1/4 c. roast beef
Dinner - Caesar chicken salad, no crutons
I am tempted to go into the kitchen and find something salty and crunchy. But I will not.
My husband suggested that I get together with a friend and make meals for like a month or 2 weeks, so that when I am too weak or tempted and do not want to go to the kitchen to cook, a child can just pop the frozen dinner in the oven. I think that is a great idea. I do not know what friend would like to do that, but I bet she's out there.
I have not started the Metformin still. I am still not peaceful about it. I will email Dr. LaSalle and ask her if I keep a good nearly perfect diet and keep exercising could I please see what my levels are in 6 weeks, without meds.
Please pray for God to do what Metformin would have done. DROP THOSE INSULIN LEVELS!!
Thanks for hanging with me, friends.
Breakfast - small bowl of egg beaters, scrambled and 4 bites of cantaloupe (medium GI, not the best)
Lunch - Spinach salad, 1/2 c pintos
20 minute walk!
Snack - nuts, 1/4 c. roast beef
Dinner - Caesar chicken salad, no crutons
I am tempted to go into the kitchen and find something salty and crunchy. But I will not.
My husband suggested that I get together with a friend and make meals for like a month or 2 weeks, so that when I am too weak or tempted and do not want to go to the kitchen to cook, a child can just pop the frozen dinner in the oven. I think that is a great idea. I do not know what friend would like to do that, but I bet she's out there.
I have not started the Metformin still. I am still not peaceful about it. I will email Dr. LaSalle and ask her if I keep a good nearly perfect diet and keep exercising could I please see what my levels are in 6 weeks, without meds.
Please pray for God to do what Metformin would have done. DROP THOSE INSULIN LEVELS!!
Thanks for hanging with me, friends.
Day 17, BAM
Today was not as hard as I thought it would be. I did have to call a friend a couple times and talk about my anxieties of my new life styles. It helped.
Today I ate, nuts, 1/2 an apple, 1/2 a can of tuna straight up :), a whole lotta carrot sticks, and then we went out to dinner. I ordered a spinach salad, hold the caramelized pecans, hold the bacon, add some chicken, and change the honey mustard to raspberry vinaigrette. It came with red onions and mushrooms. It was very good! And my drink was carbonated water served over lemon. BAM!
I did not walk today. I purpose to walk tomorrow.
I am nervous about a new medication I am suppose to be taking to lower my insulin level. Dr. LaSalle wants me to take Metformin which will bring my insulin levels down quickly. Then see her in 6 weeks for a check up. If I have kept up on my eating habits and walking and I am beginning to lose weight and my insulin levels are down, I can be weaned off the Metformin. I am nervous about starting it, have I mentioned that I'm nervous about starting it??
http://www.drugs.com/metformin.html
I don't know if I can handle the anxiety of watching out for side effects of LACTIC ACIDOSIS!
Today I ate, nuts, 1/2 an apple, 1/2 a can of tuna straight up :), a whole lotta carrot sticks, and then we went out to dinner. I ordered a spinach salad, hold the caramelized pecans, hold the bacon, add some chicken, and change the honey mustard to raspberry vinaigrette. It came with red onions and mushrooms. It was very good! And my drink was carbonated water served over lemon. BAM!
I did not walk today. I purpose to walk tomorrow.
I am nervous about a new medication I am suppose to be taking to lower my insulin level. Dr. LaSalle wants me to take Metformin which will bring my insulin levels down quickly. Then see her in 6 weeks for a check up. If I have kept up on my eating habits and walking and I am beginning to lose weight and my insulin levels are down, I can be weaned off the Metformin. I am nervous about starting it, have I mentioned that I'm nervous about starting it??
http://www.drugs.com/metformin.html
I don't know if I can handle the anxiety of watching out for side effects of LACTIC ACIDOSIS!
Wednesday, March 9, 2011
Day 16, I made it
It's 9:30 and I did it! Carrots, spinach, chicken breast, carrots and more carrots, and some green beans. And, I'm full.
Tomorrow is just another today with more to look forward to.
That should be a bumper sticker.
Tomorrow is just another today with more to look forward to.
That should be a bumper sticker.
Day 16, serious business
I have eaten perfectly for 24 hours. Today has been nuts and fruit because I can't think. I'm about to have a green smoothie. I do not want to make dinner because I do not want to touch the forbidden foods. However, a friend did bring over home made cookies and they sat on my desk right next to me and I didn't even give them the time of day.
Plus, I walked with a friend for 30 minutes in my new shoes. Love.
It's only 3:40, but I think I just might make it through the first day of serious business doing pretty well.
Plus, I walked with a friend for 30 minutes in my new shoes. Love.
It's only 3:40, but I think I just might make it through the first day of serious business doing pretty well.
Tuesday, March 8, 2011
Day 15, the test results
Oh boy oh boy oh boy. Today was surely a day of awakening. I have been seeing a wonderful new Dr. in Carmel, IN: Dr. Angela LaSalle. She a non-typical dr. meaning she looks for the REASON you are they way you are and not just treating the way you are with standard meds.
I sat in the chair in front of her as she went through page after page after page of results with me. Everything from pee to blood to spit, which the spit was not back yet. There was enough to fill up an hour of talking about pee and blood.
Or rather I should say urine. Sorry.
24 hour urine test showed I have hormonal issues LOLOLOLOLOL who knew? Blood shows that my thyroid meds are smack dab right on. SWEET! And other things were wonderful and perfect. And then, or dear God, then, we hit the LIPID PANEL PAGE.
I have always had high cholesterol. It has never been under 200. But over the last few years I have seen my tricglicerides creep up up and upper. And the tris are really high, the good is low and the bad is high. It's all wack.
There is so much more to say, but I will not bore you. I have Metabolic Syndrome. If you want to know exactly what that is http://www.mayoclinic.com/health/metabolic%20syndrome/DS00522, otherwise just know its something that requries a drastic diet change and increased exercise. Exactly what I was SLOWLY building up to. Now, it's been given a violent shove into over-drive.
I'd post my numbers on here if I had them in front of me. But I can tell you my triglycerides were like 335. OMG. They should be below 150 for sure. They used to be under 100 :(
On a better note, I bought my new shoes today! For half of what I thought I was going to spend! I wanted Sketcher Shape Ups but opted for Sketcher Tone Ups because they weren't so heavy. And they were only 60.00 instead of 120.00 cause the style I like is going out of style so they are clearing them out :)
Tonight we went to my very favorite restraunt of all time: Maggiano's. The best Italian food ever. Guess what I had? Bruchetta for appetizer (bread is not good, but it was very little), Caesar Salad with chicken (picked off the croutons) and a side of steamed broccoli and asparagus with lemon and garlic...and water. It was very good!!
I can do this. I can do all things through Christ. My brother in law had metabolic syndrome when he was in his 40's and didn't do anything about it. In his 50's he nearly died, had quad-by pass, and got serious diabetes. He takes shots, has a pace maker and defib. thingie in his heart and is a very sick man. I DO NOT WANT TO BE LIKE THAT!! I want to see my grandchildren grow and have fun with my husband when we are older!
Lord, please, make me take notice of everything that passes by my lips for the sake of my family.
Oh, and pardon the mis-spellings. I'm too metabolic to run my spell checker.
I sat in the chair in front of her as she went through page after page after page of results with me. Everything from pee to blood to spit, which the spit was not back yet. There was enough to fill up an hour of talking about pee and blood.
Or rather I should say urine. Sorry.
24 hour urine test showed I have hormonal issues LOLOLOLOLOL who knew? Blood shows that my thyroid meds are smack dab right on. SWEET! And other things were wonderful and perfect. And then, or dear God, then, we hit the LIPID PANEL PAGE.
I have always had high cholesterol. It has never been under 200. But over the last few years I have seen my tricglicerides creep up up and upper. And the tris are really high, the good is low and the bad is high. It's all wack.
There is so much more to say, but I will not bore you. I have Metabolic Syndrome. If you want to know exactly what that is http://www.mayoclinic.com/health/metabolic%20syndrome/DS00522, otherwise just know its something that requries a drastic diet change and increased exercise. Exactly what I was SLOWLY building up to. Now, it's been given a violent shove into over-drive.
I'd post my numbers on here if I had them in front of me. But I can tell you my triglycerides were like 335. OMG. They should be below 150 for sure. They used to be under 100 :(
On a better note, I bought my new shoes today! For half of what I thought I was going to spend! I wanted Sketcher Shape Ups but opted for Sketcher Tone Ups because they weren't so heavy. And they were only 60.00 instead of 120.00 cause the style I like is going out of style so they are clearing them out :)
Tonight we went to my very favorite restraunt of all time: Maggiano's. The best Italian food ever. Guess what I had? Bruchetta for appetizer (bread is not good, but it was very little), Caesar Salad with chicken (picked off the croutons) and a side of steamed broccoli and asparagus with lemon and garlic...and water. It was very good!!
I can do this. I can do all things through Christ. My brother in law had metabolic syndrome when he was in his 40's and didn't do anything about it. In his 50's he nearly died, had quad-by pass, and got serious diabetes. He takes shots, has a pace maker and defib. thingie in his heart and is a very sick man. I DO NOT WANT TO BE LIKE THAT!! I want to see my grandchildren grow and have fun with my husband when we are older!
Lord, please, make me take notice of everything that passes by my lips for the sake of my family.
Oh, and pardon the mis-spellings. I'm too metabolic to run my spell checker.
Monday, March 7, 2011
Day 14, I weighed
I will not be near a scale tomorrow which is the day I said I would weigh. So, I weighed this a.m. - you know, the normal way - AFTER I pee, BEFORE I take a drink, STARK naked and with the scale in EXACTLY the same spot on the floor as last time.
I weigh EXACTLY the same as I did 14 days ago.
So, yeah. Blogging burns very little calories. BUTT, I mean But, it is a new day, a new week, and I am on a life long journey. I am NOT going backwards, I am constantly moving foward. And forward motion is good.
Goals this week are eat greens every day, drink water omg, get shoes and start walking.
Here was my devotional this a.m. I found it quite fitting. Enjoy!
I weigh EXACTLY the same as I did 14 days ago.
So, yeah. Blogging burns very little calories. BUTT, I mean But, it is a new day, a new week, and I am on a life long journey. I am NOT going backwards, I am constantly moving foward. And forward motion is good.
Goals this week are eat greens every day, drink water omg, get shoes and start walking.
Here was my devotional this a.m. I found it quite fitting. Enjoy!
The Verse that Made Me Cringe7 Mar 2011
For years, I cringed every time I read a verse about honoring God with my body and my body being the temple of the Holy Spirit. I wanted to please God. But did it have to be with my body? I had set out with great enthusiasm to get healthy so many times but always slipped back into complacency. I didn't want to try and just be reminded of my failures again. Then I found the most interesting story in the Old Testament about how serious God is about people taking care of the temple entrusted to them. It stepped on my toes and messed with my heart in the best kind of way. Before the Holy Spirit was given to us and our bodies became the temple, there used to be physical locations for the Spirit of God to dwell. In Haggai chapter 1 God's people had returned from being in exile in Babylon. One of the first things they set about doing was to rebuild the temple. They started with great enthusiasm and wonderful intentions but slowly slipped back into complacency and eventually stopped their work on the temple all together. Other things seemed more urgent, higher priorities, and all together more appealing to work on. Haggai 1:2-8 says: "This is what the LORD Almighty says: "These people say, ‘The time has not yet come for the LORD’s house to be built.’ ” Then the word of the LORD came through the prophet Haggai: “Is it a time for you yourselves to be living in your paneled houses, while this house remains a ruin?” Now this is what the LORD Almighty says: “Give careful thought to your ways. You have planted much, but have harvested little. You eat, but never have enough. You drink, but never have your fill. You put on clothes, but are not warm. You earn wages, only to put them in a purse with holes in it.” This is what the LORD Almighty says: “Give careful thought to your ways. Go up into the mountains and bring down timber and build the house, so that I may take pleasure in it and be honored,” says the LORD." Oh this reminds me just how divided my heart can be when it comes to taking care of my body – God's temple. Like these Jewish people, I could easily say, "I'm not in a season where it's feasible to take care of my body. I just can't find the time between the kids, my work responsibilities, running a home, paying the bills, and all the day to day activities." However, if I was really honest, I made time for what I wanted to make time for. Just the same, the Jews who returned from Babylon obviously had time to do things they really wanted to do as well. They found the time and energy to put paneling up in their own homes while ignoring the home of the Lord. So, where's the hope? I found it in the challenge the Lord issues in verse 7: "Give careful thought to our ways" and make time to "build the house" so that he may be honored. Verse 8 says, "Go up into the mountains." In other words, escape the ruts of my same old patterns by heading onward and upward. Give careful thought to each decision I make from here. I realized each decision mattered. So, every day I started waking up and lifting up my willingness to head in a new direction to the Lord. As I took positive steps, the Lord strengthened my heart day by day. One good decision turned into two, turned into three, and eventually turned into victory. Like my Pastor says, "You must do what only you can do. Then God will do what only He can do." Slowly, I rebuilt my temple and learned to honor God with my body. Me. The girl who used to cringe at the thought of this verse. Sweet sister, if I can do it, so can you.
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Sunday, March 6, 2011
Day 13
Another normal day with one exception.
I HAVEN'T HAD ONE DRINK OF WATER!!!
Isn't that a cryin' shame?
And I feel parched!! So dumb, so dumb, so dumb.
Got some greens in, didn't walk more than down my stairs and back.
Huh. Blogging isn't doing much except for showing me my weaknesses!!!
Gulp.
I HAVEN'T HAD ONE DRINK OF WATER!!!
Isn't that a cryin' shame?
And I feel parched!! So dumb, so dumb, so dumb.
Got some greens in, didn't walk more than down my stairs and back.
Huh. Blogging isn't doing much except for showing me my weaknesses!!!
Gulp.
Day 12, a victory
Yesterday, day 12, was pretty good eating wise. I went to a party to celebrate the promotion of my husband's co-workers and there was a load of food laid out. Good food, and good drink. But my choices were not my own and had to be made by my Spirit and not my Flesh. I had one wine cooler, and then 3 large cups of ice water. While everyone snarfed, I visited and told stories that made people laugh till they cried. (My favorite part of life) Towards the end of the night I got a small small bowl of 7 layer salad thingie, then one scoop of home made ice cream and the edge of one brownie. Then more water.
Yep, that's a far cry from what I normally would have done.
Then I sat around a table with several women, 2 who have had bi-pass surgery and lost a ton of weight, and talked about my fat fingers and back fat. Lots of laughter, which is good for their soul and mine. I'd rather talk about it and laugh about it while I'm changing instead of hide in a corner of my bedroom and cry myself into a tizzy.
Tizzy. Is that really a word?
Yep, that's a far cry from what I normally would have done.
Then I sat around a table with several women, 2 who have had bi-pass surgery and lost a ton of weight, and talked about my fat fingers and back fat. Lots of laughter, which is good for their soul and mine. I'd rather talk about it and laugh about it while I'm changing instead of hide in a corner of my bedroom and cry myself into a tizzy.
Tizzy. Is that really a word?
Saturday, March 5, 2011
Day 11
Day 11 wasn't so bad. I did walk a little, and I painted a bathroom where Mike is working which was the walls and ceiling so that was more stretching and movement than I normally do and I have the stiff neck to prove it.
I did eat pretty well and didn't have any crazy cravings except for a coke which I got while we were painting and I shared it with a thirsty Rebecca.
This coming week, I get my OWN SHOES. I have not had a pair of tennis shoes that are mine for, ever. I have had men's shoes given to Mike which fit me. But to have my own shoes has been a long time.
I bought a pair of Sketcher Shape Ups which I was VERY excited about. My friend had them for sale for 80.00, normally I think around 120.00. She never wore them and they were my size. However, I didn't realize Sketchers run about a half size small and my toes said, NOOOOOOO. I gave them to Kylin whose toes said YESSSSS and she enjoys them.
But next week, ahhhh yes, next week, I will but them, and then I will walk and walk and walk and walk with my ipod playing the soundtrack to Chronicles of Narnia, the Lion the Witch and the Wardrobe, and Blue Man Group, and Susan Ashton, and Rush and whatever else the heck I want because I will own that road.
Yep - I feel a stirring a comin.
I did eat pretty well and didn't have any crazy cravings except for a coke which I got while we were painting and I shared it with a thirsty Rebecca.
This coming week, I get my OWN SHOES. I have not had a pair of tennis shoes that are mine for, ever. I have had men's shoes given to Mike which fit me. But to have my own shoes has been a long time.
I bought a pair of Sketcher Shape Ups which I was VERY excited about. My friend had them for sale for 80.00, normally I think around 120.00. She never wore them and they were my size. However, I didn't realize Sketchers run about a half size small and my toes said, NOOOOOOO. I gave them to Kylin whose toes said YESSSSS and she enjoys them.
But next week, ahhhh yes, next week, I will but them, and then I will walk and walk and walk and walk with my ipod playing the soundtrack to Chronicles of Narnia, the Lion the Witch and the Wardrobe, and Blue Man Group, and Susan Ashton, and Rush and whatever else the heck I want because I will own that road.
Yep - I feel a stirring a comin.
Thursday, March 3, 2011
Day 10, Laugh with me
I woke up this a.m. with a horrible thought. I know in the lifelong plan of being healthy this should not matter to me, but I'm talking to you this a.m. from my flesh. I woke up thinking, I think I'm gaining weight! Yeah, good morning fear.
My fingers are swollen this a.m. It started last night when I realized I couldn't take my mommy's ring off. I did get it off eventually, unlike my class ring a few years ago when I woke up with swollen fingers and had to get it cut off at the hospital, where it took them 30 minutes because they couldn't fit their cutting thingie under my ring.
So since my fingers are swollen I automatically think the rest of me must be swelling and the scale is going to shock me. So, I don't step on it. And the only reason I do not step on that scale is because I told you that I would do it on day 15, and I keep my word.
I remember when I lost weight back in 2003, I would eat very well and walk, and a few days of that I would step on the scale and say, IT WORKS!! What a shocker. Eat well, exercise, and the extra fat comes off. But the way I felt this a.m. was that if I stepped on the scales and it showed a gain or no change I would say, "Well really? You mean I can make a very small change and not exercise at all and it stays the same or goes up??" WHAT A SHOCKER.
I can tell you one thing. The Lord is my just scale. He measures me not by what I am on the outside, but by my heart. I will not let my failures at weight loss and health determine my worth to God. Nope. Not gonna do it. I love my children when they are failing miserably, and that is only because I am loved like that from my own Father in Heaven.
HOWEVER, what are the chances I am going to be healthier if I do not make a huge effort to do so? Slim to none.
Brian Regan says it best. Laugh with me. .Brian Regan at the Doctor
My fingers are swollen this a.m. It started last night when I realized I couldn't take my mommy's ring off. I did get it off eventually, unlike my class ring a few years ago when I woke up with swollen fingers and had to get it cut off at the hospital, where it took them 30 minutes because they couldn't fit their cutting thingie under my ring.
So since my fingers are swollen I automatically think the rest of me must be swelling and the scale is going to shock me. So, I don't step on it. And the only reason I do not step on that scale is because I told you that I would do it on day 15, and I keep my word.
I remember when I lost weight back in 2003, I would eat very well and walk, and a few days of that I would step on the scale and say, IT WORKS!! What a shocker. Eat well, exercise, and the extra fat comes off. But the way I felt this a.m. was that if I stepped on the scales and it showed a gain or no change I would say, "Well really? You mean I can make a very small change and not exercise at all and it stays the same or goes up??" WHAT A SHOCKER.
I can tell you one thing. The Lord is my just scale. He measures me not by what I am on the outside, but by my heart. I will not let my failures at weight loss and health determine my worth to God. Nope. Not gonna do it. I love my children when they are failing miserably, and that is only because I am loved like that from my own Father in Heaven.
HOWEVER, what are the chances I am going to be healthier if I do not make a huge effort to do so? Slim to none.
Brian Regan says it best. Laugh with me. .Brian Regan at the Doctor
Wednesday, March 2, 2011
Day 9..is a magic number
Isn't that what schoolhouse rock use to say? Well, I feel rather unmagical today. It was a day of water, no salads and no walking.
I get the feeling that I may very well be insane...repeating the same thing over and over and expecting different results.
Yep, that's insanity. STOP the insanity. Isn't that what the blonde chick used to scream at the tv?
Good night, day 9. I didn't enjoy you.
Tuesday, March 1, 2011
Day ate I mean 8
To the point:
Ate a good breakfast, big salad at lunch with chicken burrito, no sweets which caused a headache and long nap wherein I therefore dreamed of Coke. Dinner was home made chili with cornbread. I ate a bowl of chili, one piece of cornbread and another large salad. And then another piece of cornbread which really wasn't a piece, it was a slab. A big one.
I drank more water today but I did not walk. I'm seeing a pattern. But it's so dern cold still! And that is why I also cannot use my elliptical. Errrhum.
I ran an errand with my son and we went past a McDonald's where the 1.00 Coke asked me if I wanted it and I said no. I came home proud of myself and while standing in the kitchen reminiscing over the whining that had just taken place in my ear by a child, I ate more slabs of cornbread, with butter, but these slabs were broken up so I had several to make sure I got one whole slab. Then I was thirsty so I washed it all down with a glass of milk and a shot of Kahlua.
Yep - there you have it. The butt ugly truth. More salad and water does not make an obedient girl.
Must try harder, but the words of Yoda ring in my ear - Do or do not, there is no "try".
Ate a good breakfast, big salad at lunch with chicken burrito, no sweets which caused a headache and long nap wherein I therefore dreamed of Coke. Dinner was home made chili with cornbread. I ate a bowl of chili, one piece of cornbread and another large salad. And then another piece of cornbread which really wasn't a piece, it was a slab. A big one.
I drank more water today but I did not walk. I'm seeing a pattern. But it's so dern cold still! And that is why I also cannot use my elliptical. Errrhum.
I ran an errand with my son and we went past a McDonald's where the 1.00 Coke asked me if I wanted it and I said no. I came home proud of myself and while standing in the kitchen reminiscing over the whining that had just taken place in my ear by a child, I ate more slabs of cornbread, with butter, but these slabs were broken up so I had several to make sure I got one whole slab. Then I was thirsty so I washed it all down with a glass of milk and a shot of Kahlua.
Yep - there you have it. The butt ugly truth. More salad and water does not make an obedient girl.
Must try harder, but the words of Yoda ring in my ear - Do or do not, there is no "try".
Monday, February 28, 2011
Day 7
I met 2 of my 3 goals today. I drank more water, I ate more veggies but I did not walk. I felt pretty puny today. Rather anxious inside and not wanting to move much. I let the house go except for what the children did which is wonderful, but not really mommy style.
One son made a double batch of brownies with chocolate chips added. I ate a small one, which is a far cry from my OLD LIFESTYLE (not pre-diet, old lifestyle) I was proud of that. But then again, when I am feeling anxious I do not want chocolate or a coke, so that was the blessing of my state of being today. It's not easy to find a blessing when I feel this way!
I will continue with my same goals until I can meet them consistently, and then I will add a new one in.
So for tomorrow, day 8, I purpose to eat a large serving of veggies at 2 meals, drink more (and I mean more than today) water, and walk.
Please Lord, let me leave my selfish desires in the garbage disposal, or trash can, or on the counter to rot. If I put my selfish, unhealthy desires in my mouth it will not be good for me or for You.
My eventual ultimate goal for life? To trust the Lord for every bite. To give him glory for every bite taken, and every bite left. To have complete peace over eating. Wonder how many blogs I will write before that happens?
One son made a double batch of brownies with chocolate chips added. I ate a small one, which is a far cry from my OLD LIFESTYLE (not pre-diet, old lifestyle) I was proud of that. But then again, when I am feeling anxious I do not want chocolate or a coke, so that was the blessing of my state of being today. It's not easy to find a blessing when I feel this way!
I will continue with my same goals until I can meet them consistently, and then I will add a new one in.
So for tomorrow, day 8, I purpose to eat a large serving of veggies at 2 meals, drink more (and I mean more than today) water, and walk.
Please Lord, let me leave my selfish desires in the garbage disposal, or trash can, or on the counter to rot. If I put my selfish, unhealthy desires in my mouth it will not be good for me or for You.
My eventual ultimate goal for life? To trust the Lord for every bite. To give him glory for every bite taken, and every bite left. To have complete peace over eating. Wonder how many blogs I will write before that happens?
Sunday, February 27, 2011
Day 6, p.m.
Today was pretty good. I met my goals. I only ate 2 pieces of pizza and I ate a huge veggie salad with it. I did not have dessert and I did drink more water today. I did have graham crackers and milk like a school girl rebel.
And that is all I have to say about that.
Tomorrow's goals? Walk. Drink more water. Keep up with the veggies.
And that is all I have to say about that.
Tomorrow's goals? Walk. Drink more water. Keep up with the veggies.
Day 6, a.m.
Good morning day 6. I need to tell you something. I know you are just a day, but you are a day that will involve a lot of pizza. See, at Mosaic, where we worship, it is a celebration of the anniversary of the church. And we always have pizza. But you see, Day 6, I do not mind eating some pizza during your day. I don't mind at all. But I need you to understand something. I cannot eat 4. I cannot even eat 3. I will however, eat 2.
BUT, do not frown on me yet, Day 6. I will also devour a large veggie salad, just like I did last night, and I will drink water, just like I didn't do last night.
So, although you greet me with reminders of my failures, I have one more thing to say to you. You were made by the Lord, Day, and I will rejoice and be glad in you. And His mercies are new in you. And you cannot stop me from doing what I know is right. You're just a day.
And I'm a little frightened that I just wrote a letter to...a day.
Huh.
BUT, do not frown on me yet, Day 6. I will also devour a large veggie salad, just like I did last night, and I will drink water, just like I didn't do last night.
So, although you greet me with reminders of my failures, I have one more thing to say to you. You were made by the Lord, Day, and I will rejoice and be glad in you. And His mercies are new in you. And you cannot stop me from doing what I know is right. You're just a day.
And I'm a little frightened that I just wrote a letter to...a day.
Huh.
Saturday, February 26, 2011
Day 5, here I go again on my own...
Yeah, that White Snake song is ringing through my head. Not just because its on rock band, but because that's really how I feel about this lifestyle change. Here I go again. But, like I've said before, what's the alternative, quitting forever? That's not really now I roll.
Speaking of rolls, I got 'em. And, I ate 'em. Not really in the form of a roll, but a Fazolli's breadstickImeanthree.
Today for my a.m. meal I had 6 chicken nuggets and a few drinks of coke.
For my mid day meal I hate a large salad with grilled chicken, 3, yes count them, 3 Fazolli's breadsticks, and 1 Coke which I refilledthreetimes. (I thought if I typed it all together it might not look so bad. Not true.)
My goals for the rest of the day are this: Nap. Eat another veggie salad sans the bread sticks. And drink as much water as I can until I go to bed tonight, and then get up and pee 3 times during the night.
Good goals.
Speaking of rolls, I got 'em. And, I ate 'em. Not really in the form of a roll, but a Fazolli's breadstickImeanthree.
Today for my a.m. meal I had 6 chicken nuggets and a few drinks of coke.
For my mid day meal I hate a large salad with grilled chicken, 3, yes count them, 3 Fazolli's breadsticks, and 1 Coke which I refilledthreetimes. (I thought if I typed it all together it might not look so bad. Not true.)
My goals for the rest of the day are this: Nap. Eat another veggie salad sans the bread sticks. And drink as much water as I can until I go to bed tonight, and then get up and pee 3 times during the night.
Good goals.
Friday, February 25, 2011
Day 4, oh d-d-d-dear, dear!
Must we speak of this day? I think not. But if I do not blog, I will have failed on all aspects of my daily goals, so, I blog. And blogging is calorie free.
Today was the 1 month anniversary of my mommy's death. I woke up crying. Drank 2 cups of coffee while crying. Ate 3 pieces of toast. Got my hair cut, ate a cheeseburger, fries and a coke, and headed to my Dad's with the family to clean out all my mom's clothes, shoes and sewing items. It was also celebration of my Dad's 73rd birthday which included a pitch in dinner. The whole family was there, but mom wasn't, and it was empty even though there was a houseful.
I hate an Italian beef sandwich, some chips and a small dessert. Then I came home to our house, where all my children and I gathered for a rock band/ping pong party, which included, get this, chocolate chip ice cream and chocolate lava cake, Pampered Chef style. SIN IN A BOWL. And I partook (partaked?) of it.
So I go to bed tonight realizing one thing - I have a long way to go. So long that it seems victories are going to be so far apart. I am fearing failure and death from unhealthy lifestyle. So there's only one thing to do...
listen to the voice of truth. It tells me a different story. The voice of truth says, DO NOT BE AFRAID. The voice of truth says, THIS IS FOR MY GLORY!!! So of all the voices calling out to me, I will choose to listen and believe the voice of TRUTH.
Jesus, you are the truth. You are the voice inside of me saying, live your life abundantly! I know that doesn't mean that I should eat abundantly, especially when it's ice cream choco-evil-lava.
Today was the 1 month anniversary of my mommy's death. I woke up crying. Drank 2 cups of coffee while crying. Ate 3 pieces of toast. Got my hair cut, ate a cheeseburger, fries and a coke, and headed to my Dad's with the family to clean out all my mom's clothes, shoes and sewing items. It was also celebration of my Dad's 73rd birthday which included a pitch in dinner. The whole family was there, but mom wasn't, and it was empty even though there was a houseful.
I hate an Italian beef sandwich, some chips and a small dessert. Then I came home to our house, where all my children and I gathered for a rock band/ping pong party, which included, get this, chocolate chip ice cream and chocolate lava cake, Pampered Chef style. SIN IN A BOWL. And I partook (partaked?) of it.
So I go to bed tonight realizing one thing - I have a long way to go. So long that it seems victories are going to be so far apart. I am fearing failure and death from unhealthy lifestyle. So there's only one thing to do...
listen to the voice of truth. It tells me a different story. The voice of truth says, DO NOT BE AFRAID. The voice of truth says, THIS IS FOR MY GLORY!!! So of all the voices calling out to me, I will choose to listen and believe the voice of TRUTH.
Jesus, you are the truth. You are the voice inside of me saying, live your life abundantly! I know that doesn't mean that I should eat abundantly, especially when it's ice cream choco-evil-lava.
Thursday, February 24, 2011
Day 3, p.m.
Goals today, MET!
Enjoyed an evening green smoothie.
Ate veggies with lunch.
Ate a large salad with dinner.
Walked with a sweet friend for a mile or so.
Tomorrow's goal, to keep up what I did today and add another goal - more water. I used to drink SO MUCH water! I've fallen away from doing that.
I'm thinking that I'll weigh myself at day 15. I have been an obsessive weigher for years. It started when I had my first pregnancy and never ended, until I saw the last number a few days ago. I won't see that number again. That number, which shall remain nameless to protect the innocent, is not healthy.
I don't care what size my jeans are. I don't care what my friends say about me. I care that by the time this year is over, I can say I did my VERY best, not just my 'try', but my very best. Each day. I refuse to regret what I did each day, and I won't beat myself up over failures. I will fail, cause I'm human. But I will change, because God is not done with me. I am His work in progress.
Work me out, Lord. Change me all up.
Enjoyed an evening green smoothie.
Ate veggies with lunch.
Ate a large salad with dinner.
Walked with a sweet friend for a mile or so.
Tomorrow's goal, to keep up what I did today and add another goal - more water. I used to drink SO MUCH water! I've fallen away from doing that.
I'm thinking that I'll weigh myself at day 15. I have been an obsessive weigher for years. It started when I had my first pregnancy and never ended, until I saw the last number a few days ago. I won't see that number again. That number, which shall remain nameless to protect the innocent, is not healthy.
I don't care what size my jeans are. I don't care what my friends say about me. I care that by the time this year is over, I can say I did my VERY best, not just my 'try', but my very best. Each day. I refuse to regret what I did each day, and I won't beat myself up over failures. I will fail, cause I'm human. But I will change, because God is not done with me. I am His work in progress.
Work me out, Lord. Change me all up.
Day 3, a.m.
I didn't start my day with a green smoothie. I started it with a sweet and salty granola bar. And then I added, just for good measure, 4 mini powdered donuts. I thought about running out to gamble or rob a bank as well, but decided those were dumb decisions. See the irony?
Not only would they be dumb, they would not be good for my health, my family, or my future.
Somehow though, a granola bar and 4 mini donuts isn't so frowned upon by most people. Unless you're Dr. LaSalle, and well, ME.
But, the day is not over, and I will drink my smoothie still, and I will eat veggies at other meals and I will walk out of my driveway. And this is what the Holy Spirit laid on my heart while typing this. Truth...
For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future." Jeremiah 29:11
Not only would they be dumb, they would not be good for my health, my family, or my future.
Somehow though, a granola bar and 4 mini donuts isn't so frowned upon by most people. Unless you're Dr. LaSalle, and well, ME.
But, the day is not over, and I will drink my smoothie still, and I will eat veggies at other meals and I will walk out of my driveway. And this is what the Holy Spirit laid on my heart while typing this. Truth...
For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future." Jeremiah 29:11
Wednesday, February 23, 2011
Day 2, p.m.
I met my goals today. I have a large green smoothie this a.m., ate a salad and chicken for lunch with some tortilla chips, and home made pizza and a salad for dinner. I did have 2 cans of Cafe free Coke, but I didn't say I wouldn't have those so, yeah.
Tomorrow, my goal is to have another green smoothie for the a.m., eat another salad or two, and go on a walk. I'm not setting a distance goal, just a walk somewhere out of my driveway. That sounds pretty easy, but wrapping my brain around the fact that my LIFE needs to be different and not just the next few months makes me a little weird.
So, baby steps, literary, out of my driveway tomorrow.
Tomorrow, my goal is to have another green smoothie for the a.m., eat another salad or two, and go on a walk. I'm not setting a distance goal, just a walk somewhere out of my driveway. That sounds pretty easy, but wrapping my brain around the fact that my LIFE needs to be different and not just the next few months makes me a little weird.
So, baby steps, literary, out of my driveway tomorrow.
Day 2, a.m.
I have a love/hate relationship with the scale. I love it when it's under my bathroom sink and I hate it when it's under my feet. For real.
I have been weighing myself for years, probably since my first pregnancy which was a whopping 24 years ago pregnancy (For real??) I watched the scale go up 65 lbs. that year. I was horrified but too excited over the new life to be vain for long. I lost that weight with work over the next couple years. Unlike some of my more fortunate friends, I didn't lose when I was nursing. Oh no, no, no. I held on to that weight like a giant magnet on a junk yard car.
When baby #2 came along 3 years later, I gained a whopping something like 50 lbs. Again, a lot of work and a young metabolism helped me shed the weight, except for 10 or so lbs.
Same thing with #3, except this time I gained as much weight as before but had that extra 10 lbs. and I was more tired and didn't have the time to work as hard on losing the weight. I dropped some, but was 20 lbs. over my comfort zone.
#4 enters the picture and same story different blessing. After he was born I was hanging on to about 30 lbs. When that child was 7 months old I had an illness, pancreatitis and gallbladder problems. I went into shock, nearly lost my life, and came home 11 days later unable to eat much at all. In 30 days I lost 40 lbs. The good news was, I was survived. The other good news was, I was my comfort weight!
Enter baby #5 :) Then #6. Hey look! #7 is a GIRL! Then a miscarriage and another pregnancy with a month of that loss. #8 was born healthy as could be, and I was toting around another 40 lbs. again.
When that baby was just a few months old, I got serious, quit eating like a pig, and started walking every day. I got up to 4 or 5 miles most every day. Who knew eating less and exercising more would work! I'm a genius!
After losing 35 lbs. and keeping that off for 2 years, I became pregnant and lost that baby. Shortly after that I lost another baby, and then was pregnant again. 3 pregnancies in one year, and delivery the next year. Welcome back 35 lbs. (Welcome back?!?)
That was over 3 years ago. I have gained 10 more lbs. with the help of steroids for an adrenal problem, and the beauty of hypo-thyroidism not being treated correctly. I see a new non-traditional doctor now in Carmel, and has me on the road to wellness. In the meantime, I sit with a mid-section that expands and never contracts.
So there you have my history, hope you didn't go through too many kleenexes. Now that we all know my sob story here's the bottom line - I EAT TOO MUCH and I DON'T WALK anymore.
Ahhh. I feel better. I'm going to make my green smoothie now.
I have been weighing myself for years, probably since my first pregnancy which was a whopping 24 years ago pregnancy (For real??) I watched the scale go up 65 lbs. that year. I was horrified but too excited over the new life to be vain for long. I lost that weight with work over the next couple years. Unlike some of my more fortunate friends, I didn't lose when I was nursing. Oh no, no, no. I held on to that weight like a giant magnet on a junk yard car.
When baby #2 came along 3 years later, I gained a whopping something like 50 lbs. Again, a lot of work and a young metabolism helped me shed the weight, except for 10 or so lbs.
Same thing with #3, except this time I gained as much weight as before but had that extra 10 lbs. and I was more tired and didn't have the time to work as hard on losing the weight. I dropped some, but was 20 lbs. over my comfort zone.
#4 enters the picture and same story different blessing. After he was born I was hanging on to about 30 lbs. When that child was 7 months old I had an illness, pancreatitis and gallbladder problems. I went into shock, nearly lost my life, and came home 11 days later unable to eat much at all. In 30 days I lost 40 lbs. The good news was, I was survived. The other good news was, I was my comfort weight!
Enter baby #5 :) Then #6. Hey look! #7 is a GIRL! Then a miscarriage and another pregnancy with a month of that loss. #8 was born healthy as could be, and I was toting around another 40 lbs. again.
When that baby was just a few months old, I got serious, quit eating like a pig, and started walking every day. I got up to 4 or 5 miles most every day. Who knew eating less and exercising more would work! I'm a genius!
After losing 35 lbs. and keeping that off for 2 years, I became pregnant and lost that baby. Shortly after that I lost another baby, and then was pregnant again. 3 pregnancies in one year, and delivery the next year. Welcome back 35 lbs. (Welcome back?!?)
That was over 3 years ago. I have gained 10 more lbs. with the help of steroids for an adrenal problem, and the beauty of hypo-thyroidism not being treated correctly. I see a new non-traditional doctor now in Carmel, and has me on the road to wellness. In the meantime, I sit with a mid-section that expands and never contracts.
So there you have my history, hope you didn't go through too many kleenexes. Now that we all know my sob story here's the bottom line - I EAT TOO MUCH and I DON'T WALK anymore.
Ahhh. I feel better. I'm going to make my green smoothie now.
Tuesday, February 22, 2011
Day 1...end
I'd call this a partial success. I ate more veggies, and I ate chicken and veggies for dinner instead of tacos fully loaded. I drank weak tea instead of a giant Coke. But really that's because I didn't have a giant Coke.
I didn't get my green smoothie made. Tomorrow, my goal is to start my day with that smoothie. I feel so much better when I do! And it's yummy to me!
My night time snack has been pecans with coconut and cranberries. I didn't need a snack. I was really quite full. It will take some time to train my brain to think as my stomach needs.
Speaking of thinking and needing, I think I need a Coke.
Tomorrow, I will start with a green smoothie and eat fresh veggies at lunch and dinner.
Baby steps. Baby steps. Baby steps. At least I'm stepping forward no matter how small.
I didn't get my green smoothie made. Tomorrow, my goal is to start my day with that smoothie. I feel so much better when I do! And it's yummy to me!
My night time snack has been pecans with coconut and cranberries. I didn't need a snack. I was really quite full. It will take some time to train my brain to think as my stomach needs.
Speaking of thinking and needing, I think I need a Coke.
Tomorrow, I will start with a green smoothie and eat fresh veggies at lunch and dinner.
Baby steps. Baby steps. Baby steps. At least I'm stepping forward no matter how small.
Day 1...at least the first half
Well, the first have of this day has not been an improvement on my lifestyle. I have eaten a sandwich, cookies and coffee.
Pretty sure the 2nd have of the day is gonna RAWK though. Pretty sure.
I plan on having my green smoothie which is 3 or more cups of spinach, water, strawberries and a portion of a frozen banana if I have one.
At dinner, I plan on having the chicken I made last night which was just chicken breast cooked in oil with fresh garlic, pepper, salt, basil, bay leaves and grape tomatoes. Nothing else unless it's fresh veggies.
If I tell you what I'm going to eat, then it will be funnier when you see what I actually did eat. And that's what I'm all about...making you laugh while I fail. :)
Pretty sure the 2nd have of the day is gonna RAWK though. Pretty sure.
I plan on having my green smoothie which is 3 or more cups of spinach, water, strawberries and a portion of a frozen banana if I have one.
At dinner, I plan on having the chicken I made last night which was just chicken breast cooked in oil with fresh garlic, pepper, salt, basil, bay leaves and grape tomatoes. Nothing else unless it's fresh veggies.
If I tell you what I'm going to eat, then it will be funnier when you see what I actually did eat. And that's what I'm all about...making you laugh while I fail. :)
Monday, February 21, 2011
I used to be somebody
Welcome to my "other" blog. I will keep this one focused on my road to health. Grab a cup of coffee, or a beer, or a glass of wine, or decaf diet coke or a shot of jack, or a piece of dark chocolate, or the latest thing that is the RIGHT thing to eat or drink, and join me.
I used to be somebody who like to exercise and eat healthy. Well, now and then I have been like that. And then something makes me change.
I recently went to a wonderful Dr. in Indianapolis, Dr. LaSalle, who is not a traditional doctor. She asked me when the last time was that I felt healthy. I could remember exactly when it was, 2005. I had found a great Dr. in New Albany who discovered my hypothyroidism and adrenal insufficiency along with insulin resistance and chronic fatigue. WHOO HOO!!
My thyroid levels were corrected, I was on adrenal supplements, I was walking 4-5 mi. per day, and eating veggies, chicken, beef, hardly no carbs and very little sweets. I felt great!!
Then she looked at me with convincing eyes and said, "So, why did you stop eating like that?"
I tired to come up with a reason. The room was quiet. My mouth was open. No words were coming out. And finally I said, "I got lazy?"
TRUTH!!
I had 3 pregnancies in 1 year, losing 2 and keeping one to full term. And I got lazy. Really, not other excuse.
Then she went on to tell me in a polite but firm Dr. way that the way I need to eat is not a diet, but a lifestyle.
A forever lifestyle change.
I'm afraid to commit again. I've failed so many times. But by not trying again, here I sit in 30-35 lbs. of a reminder that I'm not trying again.
My goal with this blog is to journal it just for myself, but if anyone else reads it and wants to join me or encourage me or lament with me, you're welcome!
My goal? Eat less. Eat more veggies. That's my goal for this week.
Lord, you know my insides and my outsides. Please change me so that my insides and outsides will be healthier to better serve you!
I used to be somebody who like to exercise and eat healthy. Well, now and then I have been like that. And then something makes me change.
I recently went to a wonderful Dr. in Indianapolis, Dr. LaSalle, who is not a traditional doctor. She asked me when the last time was that I felt healthy. I could remember exactly when it was, 2005. I had found a great Dr. in New Albany who discovered my hypothyroidism and adrenal insufficiency along with insulin resistance and chronic fatigue. WHOO HOO!!
My thyroid levels were corrected, I was on adrenal supplements, I was walking 4-5 mi. per day, and eating veggies, chicken, beef, hardly no carbs and very little sweets. I felt great!!
Then she looked at me with convincing eyes and said, "So, why did you stop eating like that?"
I tired to come up with a reason. The room was quiet. My mouth was open. No words were coming out. And finally I said, "I got lazy?"
TRUTH!!
I had 3 pregnancies in 1 year, losing 2 and keeping one to full term. And I got lazy. Really, not other excuse.
Then she went on to tell me in a polite but firm Dr. way that the way I need to eat is not a diet, but a lifestyle.
A forever lifestyle change.
I'm afraid to commit again. I've failed so many times. But by not trying again, here I sit in 30-35 lbs. of a reminder that I'm not trying again.
My goal with this blog is to journal it just for myself, but if anyone else reads it and wants to join me or encourage me or lament with me, you're welcome!
My goal? Eat less. Eat more veggies. That's my goal for this week.
Lord, you know my insides and my outsides. Please change me so that my insides and outsides will be healthier to better serve you!
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