Must we speak of this day? I think not. But if I do not blog, I will have failed on all aspects of my daily goals, so, I blog. And blogging is calorie free.
Today was the 1 month anniversary of my mommy's death. I woke up crying. Drank 2 cups of coffee while crying. Ate 3 pieces of toast. Got my hair cut, ate a cheeseburger, fries and a coke, and headed to my Dad's with the family to clean out all my mom's clothes, shoes and sewing items. It was also celebration of my Dad's 73rd birthday which included a pitch in dinner. The whole family was there, but mom wasn't, and it was empty even though there was a houseful.
I hate an Italian beef sandwich, some chips and a small dessert. Then I came home to our house, where all my children and I gathered for a rock band/ping pong party, which included, get this, chocolate chip ice cream and chocolate lava cake, Pampered Chef style. SIN IN A BOWL. And I partook (partaked?) of it.
So I go to bed tonight realizing one thing - I have a long way to go. So long that it seems victories are going to be so far apart. I am fearing failure and death from unhealthy lifestyle. So there's only one thing to do...
listen to the voice of truth. It tells me a different story. The voice of truth says, DO NOT BE AFRAID. The voice of truth says, THIS IS FOR MY GLORY!!! So of all the voices calling out to me, I will choose to listen and believe the voice of TRUTH.
Jesus, you are the truth. You are the voice inside of me saying, live your life abundantly! I know that doesn't mean that I should eat abundantly, especially when it's ice cream choco-evil-lava.
Have you seen this?
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You can do this, sweetpeep!
How's the hair?
Love ya Cip! We'll keep praying for the Voice of Truth, too! Large families need it!
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