It's been a long time since I posted, 11 days to be exact. I'm disappointed in some things, but ok with some others. Disappointed that I have turned to food in my times of anxiety and exhaustion in the last week especially. My family came down with a SEVERE stomach flu beginning Monday. It is now Saturday night, and 1 of the 4 that got it is still not quite right. So when I was tired, I ate, and when I was scared for them and the dehydration, I ate. Oh I kept with my good diet alright, but added in!! I added chocolate cake, Twizzlers, cookies, chips and a pop. Not all in the same day, but still - SO WRONG! And I had zero time and energy to walk. All in all I'd say this was a bad week.
The good news...This is a journey. That's all it is. A journey. A friend told me that tonight, and I tried to one up her and embellish it by making it sound like something greater than a journey, but I couldn't! That's just what it is. I am walking along the way, down the path to a healthy lifestyle, and when I screw up and waiver off, I just get back on and go straight again.
So, Lord, here I am. Help me to remember that none of the extra calories and unhealthy choices I made helped me get through this week. It was all you. ALL you. Forgive me for making the choices I did. I want to be healthy for Your glory, for my family, for me! Hang in there with me.
Saturday, May 7, 2011
Tuesday, April 26, 2011
Day 66 TEST RESULTS!!
Hold on to your lug nuts, it's time for my results after 6 weeks of lifestyle changes! Had my appt. today and this is what Dr. LaSalle said, "GIVE ME A HIGH FIVE!!"
I previously told you that my insulin was 70 and should be 5. I was wrong. It was 20 and should be 5. So...
Insulin 6 weeks ago - 20. Insulin today - 14!
Triglycerides 6 weeks ago - 338. Triglycerides today - 263!
Cholesterol 6 weeks ago - 235. Cholesterol today 196!
HDL 6 weeks ago - 37. HDL today 30 (not good that it dropped. This is the good cholesterol)
LDL 6 weeks ago - 130. LDL today 113!
And weight down 12 lbs.!!
She was SO HAPPY! She said, "YOU LISTENED TO ME!" She was so encouraging. She is starting me on Niacin to see if we can get the good cholesterol where it should be.
My bp was higher than it's ever been there (bottom number 100). I have NEVER had that with the exception of pre-eclampsia. But she said coffee on the way over here and the exciting news was surely the cause, but keep an eye on it. When I got home I checked and it was 125/63.
All in all, I'm SO PLEASED that the Lord gave me the desire to change and the strength to do it! And the things is, I told her that I was not nearly perfect!! And she said 80/20 rule makes a BIG difference in your lifestyle. She's right!
Thanks so much for all your encouragement and prayer. I am so thankful. I see her again in 2 months for another check on labs. She said it usually take 3 months to get Insulin down to 5.
I'm on my way!!
I previously told you that my insulin was 70 and should be 5. I was wrong. It was 20 and should be 5. So...
Insulin 6 weeks ago - 20. Insulin today - 14!
Triglycerides 6 weeks ago - 338. Triglycerides today - 263!
Cholesterol 6 weeks ago - 235. Cholesterol today 196!
HDL 6 weeks ago - 37. HDL today 30 (not good that it dropped. This is the good cholesterol)
LDL 6 weeks ago - 130. LDL today 113!
And weight down 12 lbs.!!
She was SO HAPPY! She said, "YOU LISTENED TO ME!" She was so encouraging. She is starting me on Niacin to see if we can get the good cholesterol where it should be.
My bp was higher than it's ever been there (bottom number 100). I have NEVER had that with the exception of pre-eclampsia. But she said coffee on the way over here and the exciting news was surely the cause, but keep an eye on it. When I got home I checked and it was 125/63.
All in all, I'm SO PLEASED that the Lord gave me the desire to change and the strength to do it! And the things is, I told her that I was not nearly perfect!! And she said 80/20 rule makes a BIG difference in your lifestyle. She's right!
Thanks so much for all your encouragement and prayer. I am so thankful. I see her again in 2 months for another check on labs. She said it usually take 3 months to get Insulin down to 5.
I'm on my way!!
Sunday, April 24, 2011
Day 64, OINK
Yeah, I ate today like a woman who had never heard of a new lifestyle. The only thing I resisted was lasagna, donuts and cheese cake. But the things I ate were high sugar, high carb, high fat and highly enjoyable. But I'm bloated and bummed so NO NEW NEWS!!
Back on track tomorrow.
Speaking of tomorrow, it is my blood test in the a.m. I am nervous about it. I am worried that the numbers will say, "failure" and the doctor will say, "here's that medication you do not want to take, now take it or you'll die" or something like that.
So would you please pray that the efforts I have made, even though they have not been perfect every day and sometimes far from it, would be enough to show SOME IMPROVEMENT in my insulin and lipid panel? It would be a wonderful boost to my "keep going" part of my brain. I could use a little boost right now! The scales are the same, but my husband constantly comments that I am acting better, looking better and have more energy and less anxiety. He's right. Now come on blood, show me the numbers!
Back on track tomorrow.
Speaking of tomorrow, it is my blood test in the a.m. I am nervous about it. I am worried that the numbers will say, "failure" and the doctor will say, "here's that medication you do not want to take, now take it or you'll die" or something like that.
So would you please pray that the efforts I have made, even though they have not been perfect every day and sometimes far from it, would be enough to show SOME IMPROVEMENT in my insulin and lipid panel? It would be a wonderful boost to my "keep going" part of my brain. I could use a little boost right now! The scales are the same, but my husband constantly comments that I am acting better, looking better and have more energy and less anxiety. He's right. Now come on blood, show me the numbers!
Thursday, April 21, 2011
Day 61, TIP OF THE DAY
Do NOT eat carbs until the reward meal. Period. When an addict is recovering she cannot have even the slightest taste!!!
And that, my friends, is the tip of the day.
Blood test is Monday morning - GOTTA BE GOOD TO MYSELF!!
And that, my friends, is the tip of the day.
Blood test is Monday morning - GOTTA BE GOOD TO MYSELF!!
Wednesday, April 20, 2011
Day 60
I did end up walking last night, yay. I did end up eating more chicken before I went to bed, not yay. I'm sure it was the teraki sweet sauce I was craving and not the protein of the chicken.
Today has been pretty good! I had 2 eggs and 2 c. or more of spinach for breakfast, and lunch was 2 c. spinach or more with tuna, home made bread and a brownie with home made chocolate icing!!! WOOT! Can you say reward meal was lunch today? YES YOU CAN!
Now if I can stick with the plan and have a healthy complimentary meal (as the Carb Addicts Diet calls it) at dinner, I will be fine! That will include A large salad (2 c. at least) and a protein, probably chicken. I already walked today, so I got that down. My accountability partner is back in town and it was good to be held accountable.
Thanks for your faithful reads!
Today has been pretty good! I had 2 eggs and 2 c. or more of spinach for breakfast, and lunch was 2 c. spinach or more with tuna, home made bread and a brownie with home made chocolate icing!!! WOOT! Can you say reward meal was lunch today? YES YOU CAN!
Now if I can stick with the plan and have a healthy complimentary meal (as the Carb Addicts Diet calls it) at dinner, I will be fine! That will include A large salad (2 c. at least) and a protein, probably chicken. I already walked today, so I got that down. My accountability partner is back in town and it was good to be held accountable.
Thanks for your faithful reads!
Tuesday, April 19, 2011
Day 59, better
Today I had more of a focus of what is good for me and what is not. This is my food so far today:
Coffee, one with cream a a couple black
Lunch, large salad & flat bread baked with sun dried tomato pesto, and a little mozzerella
Dinner, teriaki chicken shredded, large spinach salad and 1 piece bread
Coffee, black
Water, lots
At lunch, the flat bread should not have been an option. I thought maybe I'd skip bread for my dinner because I can have it at one meal (the reward meal), but I didn't! So, better day though!
I hope to walk tonight. There is a flooded area on our road by the pond and the ducks were swimming in the road earlier today. Fun!
Coffee, one with cream a a couple black
Lunch, large salad & flat bread baked with sun dried tomato pesto, and a little mozzerella
Dinner, teriaki chicken shredded, large spinach salad and 1 piece bread
Coffee, black
Water, lots
At lunch, the flat bread should not have been an option. I thought maybe I'd skip bread for my dinner because I can have it at one meal (the reward meal), but I didn't! So, better day though!
I hope to walk tonight. There is a flooded area on our road by the pond and the ducks were swimming in the road earlier today. Fun!
Monday, April 18, 2011
Day 58 end of week 2 on CAD
Wow. I've had a rough few days. I lost an avg. of 2 lbs. the first week and felt GREAT!! My 2nd week started out good and ended on a horrid note of carb addiction return. Why? Because I let my hormonal body taste what I thought it needed, when really it was not what I needed at all. And once the taste came, the demons came back with ALL THEIR FRIENDS and I invited them in and gave them a place to hang out for awhile. Disgusting, isn't it?? I did not gain weight, but I did not lose, and more importantly, my lifestyle was not pleasing.
UGH. I hate the feeling after an addiction is fed. I have heart burn. I puke up in my mouth at night. My stomach is bloated. I am sleepier than normal. I am grumpier. My chest feels heavy. My throat feels full. I hate everything about it. I know my insulin is not being absorbed properly. I know the dangers. I've read it over and over and heard it straight from the Doctor's mouth. But when I am craving the foods that harm me, I seem to not care.
That's not really the truth. I do care. I care so much that I even have cried while the very danger passes my lips and goes down my throat.
One problem I have had this week is the grocery money was very tight, and I did not buy all the fresh veggies that I had the first week. BIG difference in how I ate. It was much better when I filled up with salad first off,and then enjoyed my protein. Mike got paid for an extra job and tomorrow, I head to the produce section!
Lord, you've shown me there is nothing good in eating foods that harm me. Nothing. Tomorrow is a new day and because of you, I can leave this day for what it is, and look forward to the new day of good things.
UGH. I hate the feeling after an addiction is fed. I have heart burn. I puke up in my mouth at night. My stomach is bloated. I am sleepier than normal. I am grumpier. My chest feels heavy. My throat feels full. I hate everything about it. I know my insulin is not being absorbed properly. I know the dangers. I've read it over and over and heard it straight from the Doctor's mouth. But when I am craving the foods that harm me, I seem to not care.
That's not really the truth. I do care. I care so much that I even have cried while the very danger passes my lips and goes down my throat.
One problem I have had this week is the grocery money was very tight, and I did not buy all the fresh veggies that I had the first week. BIG difference in how I ate. It was much better when I filled up with salad first off,and then enjoyed my protein. Mike got paid for an extra job and tomorrow, I head to the produce section!
Lord, you've shown me there is nothing good in eating foods that harm me. Nothing. Tomorrow is a new day and because of you, I can leave this day for what it is, and look forward to the new day of good things.
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