Day 39 - utterly failed

Twizzler, brownies, milk.

Need I say more?

Day 37, new goal

Well here I am at day 37 of my commitment to a new life style, and beginning week 4 of my low glyceminc, low animal fat, more exercise commitment. Hmmm.

I lost 7 lb. the first week, 0 the second week, and 0 the third week.

I have a theory.

I have been eating 75% better. I gotta bump it up. I have no wiggle room at this healing point in my life. Perhaps someday, I can fudge here and there (no pun intended), but now, I guess I cannot. Not one beer, not some pizza once a week, not not not.

I grumble a bit in my flesh, but my flesh has high insulin and high triglycerides and belly fat. So flesh, you gotta be quiet. It's time to bump it up a level and do better. My goal is not perfection, my goal is better. Do.Not.Fudge. Just for today. Lead me Lord away from the foods that harm me and guide me into your perfect peace knowing that I am changing for your glory.

PS - I can haz prayer?

Day 36

Same stuff different day of a new lifestyle! I would say I am 75% better than I was 36 days ago. I am eating greens every day, I am drinking no pop. I am drinking lots of water. I am walking nearly every day. I am not tempted by sweets so much at all. I am struggling with pizza. Seems every time we make pizza, I cave. I even had our son Aaron make it tonight so I wouldn't have to touch it, but I did touch it after it was done...and touched and touched until I probably ate equivalent to 2 pieces. My tummy never feels good when I do that. So I tried to reverse it with a dinner plate size salad and a 45 minute - 1 hour walk. Huh. Wonder if that worked.

Day 32

Another good day! Not perfect, but very good. Walked again with my friend who makes me walk when I don't want to. Gotta love her!

I find myself craving milk and pasta. Cold cold milk. Also, today I treated 4 of my children to an old fashioned soda at Lynn's Pharmacy while I picked up some supplements. Coke in any flavor you want. I so so badly wanted a nice vanilla coke, fountain style. So badly.

I still do.

Day 31

Very good day yesterday. All the right foods, with the exception of a couple bites of a bagel dang it. Walked 30 minutes and did yoga stretching with my accountability partner.

Feeling kinda down lately. I have pvc's (heart palpitations) and they came to visit about 5 days ago and seem to like it here. It brings me down after awhile.

Please pray they will stop soon.

Day 30

Day 30 was pretty good with a pretty big bad choice included :)

I ate well, greens, smoothies, chicken, water, etc. I walked a hard walk, for me, with my tall friend for about 25 min. and then later in the day I did another 20 minutes. Why did I do that other 20 minutes, because I tried to eat 2 bites of pizza and it turned into 3. Not 3 bites, 3 pieces. STOOOOPIDDD!!! And I felt horrible 30 minutes later. Not.Worth.It.

I am hearing cheers in my head, "Rebound that basketball (stomp,clap,stomp,clap,stomp, clap clap!)"

I got this.

Day 28, 29

I did ok yesterday and today has been ok, too. But today was my day to weigh and I did not lose any weight this week. I think there are 2 reasons. I fudged some - can't really fudge much at all. And I did not walk.

So, NEWSFLASH - must walk. Doing it today, and purpose to every day for the next 7 days. Please Lord give me the lowered insulin that I am asking for and honor my efforts to please you and care for your dwelling place.