Feeling Like a Whitesnake Song

You ever heard that song by Whitesnake, "Here I Go Again On My Own"? He says, "I've made up my mind, I ain't wastin' no more time, here I go again." I would not recommend watching the video though! Ahhh, the 80's. Who knew one day the videos would offend me! But that section of lyrics reflects how I'm feeling right now.I've tried to change so many times, so many ways. I end up eating the same *hi# different day. But, here I go again, convicted and unable to be a quitter! I watched a video on Netflix recently. I would recommend you watch this one! It was callled "Fat, Sick and Nearly Dead". And yes, the dude was. And so was the other dude. And they both reversed their diseases by juicing whole fruits and veggies for, well, several days, 60 to be exact. But I'm not shooting for 60. I found their website and plan on starting a juice fast on Monday, February 6th. I found a juicer on Craigslist. It's suppose to be a high quality one, for 1/4 the price. It's a Jack Lalaane Deluxe Juicer. Hope it does what I want it to do!

This week I'm suppose to be preparing my body for the upcoming fast. I'm suppose to be eating way more veggies and fruits and cutting dairy out by the end of the week, and refined sugars and everything else I love like coffee and beer and pop. I always find an excuse to not start, or to quit. The good news? I haven't given up on me or God. Together, I believe we can change me.

I plan on posting pictures of me in the same clothes on a somewhat regular basis. I hope by the end of my fast, there is a remarkable change in my behavior, my body, my spirit, my everything. Who knows, maybe I'll even be a better saxophonist! :) Yeah, that's right, I'm in a rock band with my husband, son, and 2 friends. Follow us on facebook!

Here's to better health...

Tomrrow - Day 1, Phase 2

Yep, I've gone so far away from where I was at day 90 that there is no need to keep counting. I want day #1 again. Day #1, Phase 2. Yeah. That's what I'm talking about.

So tomorrow, June 1, I will watch myself begin again. In some ways I'm SO FREAKING BUMMED. And in another way I don't really care. And in yet another way, I'm so like, "I knew I'd do this!" I'm such a quitter!!

Good new is, so what - I get down, I get up again...At least I keep on getting up!!

Day 87 - one foot on, one foot off

I know the only way I can do this, is if I'm honest and accountable to you, my friends and strangers. So here is my day:

Didn't eat until 1:00. Had 1 burrito.
About 4:00 had a bowl of spaghetti.
About 6:30 had Chicken and Veggie Braid, made with crescent rolls (Pampered Chef!) Thought I'd just eat the chicken and veggies mix, so I did. Then I had a large piece of the braid.
Topped the day off with 4 no bake oatmeal cookies and a glass of milk.
No walking. No eliptical.

Doesn't really do me any good to tell you what I did today, so that you don't think I sit on the couch all day watching Days of Our Lives and eating, well, no bake oatmeal cookies. I don't even turn on a tv during the day. And I sure as heck don't sit all day. Really doesn't matter though.

Truth? I eat like I should not and I do not do what I should.

Welcome to me, with one leg on the wagon and the other one rubbing off into a bloody stump as it drags along the road.

Day 85

I have fallen off the wagon of health and can't find my way back on. Tomorrow though, I will climb back on even if I risk getting splinters or banging my shins on the side.

Tomorrow, I will walk 20-30 minutes and eat veggies and protein for breakfast and lunch, and my reward meal at Tuscany's for graduation rehearsal dinner for our son.

That is my goal. Ask me how I did.

Day 77

It's been a long time since I posted, 11 days to be exact. I'm disappointed in some things, but ok with some others. Disappointed that I have turned to food in my times of anxiety and exhaustion in the last week especially. My family came down with a SEVERE stomach flu beginning Monday. It is now Saturday night, and 1 of the 4 that got it is still not quite right. So when I was tired, I ate, and when I was scared for them and the dehydration, I ate. Oh I kept with my good diet alright, but added in!! I added chocolate cake, Twizzlers, cookies, chips and a pop. Not all in the same day, but still - SO WRONG! And I had zero time and energy to walk. All in all I'd say this was a bad week.

The good news...This is a journey. That's all it is. A journey. A friend told me that tonight, and I tried to one up her and embellish it by making it sound like something greater than a journey, but I couldn't! That's just what it is. I am walking along the way, down the path to a healthy lifestyle, and when I screw up and waiver off, I just get back on and go straight again.

So, Lord, here I am. Help me to remember that none of the extra calories and unhealthy choices I made helped me get through this week. It was all you. ALL you. Forgive me for making the choices I did. I want to be healthy for Your glory, for my family, for me! Hang in there with me.

Day 66 TEST RESULTS!!

Hold on to your lug nuts, it's time for my results after 6 weeks of lifestyle changes! Had my appt. today and this is what Dr. LaSalle said, "GIVE ME A HIGH FIVE!!"

I previously told you that my insulin was 70 and should be 5. I was wrong. It was 20 and should be 5. So...

Insulin 6 weeks ago - 20. Insulin today - 14!
Triglycerides 6 weeks ago - 338. Triglycerides today - 263!
Cholesterol 6 weeks ago - 235. Cholesterol today 196!
HDL 6 weeks ago - 37. HDL today 30 (not good that it dropped. This is the good cholesterol)
LDL 6 weeks ago - 130. LDL today 113!
And weight down 12 lbs.!!

She was SO HAPPY! She said, "YOU LISTENED TO ME!" She was so encouraging. She is starting me on Niacin to see if we can get the good cholesterol where it should be.

My bp was higher than it's ever been there (bottom number 100). I have NEVER had that with the exception of pre-eclampsia. But she said coffee on the way over here and the exciting news was surely the cause, but keep an eye on it. When I got home I checked and it was 125/63.

All in all, I'm SO PLEASED that the Lord gave me the desire to change and the strength to do it! And the things is, I told her that I was not nearly perfect!! And she said 80/20 rule makes a BIG difference in your lifestyle. She's right!

Thanks so much for all your encouragement and prayer. I am so thankful. I see her again in 2 months for another check on labs. She said it usually take 3 months to get Insulin down to 5.

I'm on my way!!

Day 64, OINK

Yeah, I ate today like a woman who had never heard of a new lifestyle. The only thing I resisted was lasagna, donuts and cheese cake. But the things I ate were high sugar, high carb, high fat and highly enjoyable. But I'm bloated and bummed so NO NEW NEWS!!

Back on track tomorrow.

Speaking of tomorrow, it is my blood test in the a.m. I am nervous about it. I am worried that the numbers will say, "failure" and the doctor will say, "here's that medication you do not want to take, now take it or you'll die" or something like that.

So would you please pray that the efforts I have made, even though they have not been perfect every day and sometimes far from it, would be enough to show SOME IMPROVEMENT in my insulin and lipid panel? It would be a wonderful boost to my "keep going" part of my brain. I could use a little boost right now! The scales are the same, but my husband constantly comments that I am acting better, looking better and have more energy and less anxiety. He's right. Now come on blood, show me the numbers!